Job put it “I despise myself and repent in dust and ashes.” He had been talking about grand things, or so he thought, and then God showed him infinitely grander things.
And such is the state of being a sinner. Were it not for the buffer of the Person of God we know as the Son or Jesus, we would be not just undone but destroyed.
I shall be moved to an immense “Thank you” once my salvation has arrived face to face with me, or rather me with it. The more one embraces the mind of Christ, the more one is going to SUFFER... and that’s something that our prides rebel against. Suffering shows that you’re a jerk, a nobody, a schmoe, you should be ashamed of what you did... well wait. Depends on how you got there. Jesus is the primary burden bearer, but He also appoints persons to be secondary burden bearers. To love the world so much by virtue of loving Him that they become Satan’s targets too.
Don’t even put the American Dream first. That’s materialistic, and the Lord warned not to put one’s faith in things where moth and rust destroy.
You wrote it well. Amen and amen!