. I want to hear a YouTube of her speaking to a conference, class, etc. I cannot believe that she would use that same voice.
I think she wanted to appear disheveled, just like she wanted to sound young, unsure, and frightened, all to make it seem like she had just escaped from the attempted rape.
What keeps coming to my mind is the video clip I recently watched of Elizabeth Smart describing how she, as a young teen, went into the courtroom to face the man who had kidnapped and raped her for months. She is far more poised and mentally healthy after a much greater, long-lasting trauma. I believe she was mentally healthier even as a teen facing her abductor much closer to the horrible event.
I’m sure that different things like personality and the way you were raised, and so on account for some of that but, wow! To be so traumatized by something so fleeting, is strange.