You've reached a point in your life where you need a lot of downtime.
You need to rest, recuperate, and reevaluate. Give yourself this time.
It's possible that you've suffered some losses. Or maybe life just has you worn down.
Take time to relax. You will emerge a better person if you are able to find true quiet and stillness.
For someone who is supposed to be needing rest, recuperation, and reevaluation, you are mighty busy with that new job!
Maybe you’re just yearning for cooler weather. Hope it happens soon there!