You don’t get it. It took me 42 yrs and 9 months to really figure it out which is where I am at now in this life. But the fact is.. time is just about up. Unless God has another miracle he can pull off. I just figured it all out too late. It’s a personal thing between God and me, and the devil.
You’re still a young man. You never know what will happen tomorrow. Believe me, I just turned 60 and a lot has happened since I as in my 40’s.