Let's assume for a moment that the devil is at work. Jesus has told us something about dealing with him: prayer and fasting, and the saints teach that humility is a shield against him.
I was just reading an excerpt from Blessed Teresa of Calcutta; it must've been for you: "I must not attempt to control God's actions; I must not count the stages of the journey he would have me make. I must not desire a clear perception of my advance along the road, nor know precisely where I am on the way of holiness. I ask him to make a siant of me, yet I must leave to him the choice of the means which lead to it..."
Offer sacrifices to God and be patient, submit to the will of God whatever it might be. That is the way of the Cross.
It's interesting that you would accept Hell for your current state of "bliss," though... that can't be a healthy place to be.
[i]It's interesting that you would accept Hell for your current state of "bliss," though... that can't be a healthy place to be.[/i]
Hmmm...if I was willing to go to Hell there wouldn't be much point in trying to join the Church or go thru the annulment process, would their?
The excerpt from Teresa is certainly beautiful. However, it doesn't actually answer my questions.