Matthew 13:52.
There was a time, before I became a lay elder and music director in my current LCMS church, that I went to a liturgical church every Sunday in the AM, and a charismatic non-liturgical church every Sunday in the PM. I found God in the drama of the liturgy, and I found God in the power of the Spirit in the charismata, and having both made my relationship to God that much stronger. I have never met anyone else who had the same experience: they want one and despise the other, which to me is a great shame.
Thanks for your post, because it gives me Comfort to know that an LCMS member, like myself, needs to find a way to balance the current weight the LCMS places on “doctrinal purity” with the weight the Church “fathers”—including Paul—placed on the need for us as believers to “put off” our “old self” and “be made new in the attitude” of our minds...through the power of the Holy Spirit...(Eph. 4:23) “so that Christ may dwell in” our “hearts through faith” (Eph. 3:17).
I like them both as well.
So you are not alone.
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