For me, it’s not that I don’t believe all of it. I believe some of it. I just don’t believe the resurection stuff, or the virgin, descending into hell, and lots more. I don’t believe in heaven, where we get our bodies back, or hell, where there is eternal burning lol. Ultimate carrot and stick. All that stuff was drilled into my head in catholic school and sunday school, etc. The whole programming program.
Now I’m former, outside the bubble, and to me it looks like 30% historical truth, and 70% bs. But very effective for keeping people in church, supporting. I was one.
It’s like escaping scientology, to me.
Good luck in your search, my friend. I leave you with the words of the apostle Paul in 1 Corinthians 15, a man who met Jesus while walking on a road to Damascus. “12 But if it is preached that Christ has been raised from the dead, how can some of you say that there is no resurrection of the dead? 13 If there is no resurrection of the dead, then not even Christ has been raised. 14 And if Christ has not been raised, our preaching is useless and so is your faith. 15 More than that, we are then found to be false witnesses about God, for we have testified about God that he raised Christ from the dead. But he did not raise him if in fact the dead are not raised. 16 For if the dead are not raised, then Christ has not been raised either. 17 And if Christ has not been raised, your faith is futile; you are still in your sins. 18 Then those also who have fallen asleep in Christ are lost. 19 If only for this life we have hope in Christ, we are of all people most to be pitied.”