The key word for the child of God who is focused on praising the Creator is “sacrifice”. To me, the overwhelming pain and and confusion at the tragic loss of my son, Ben, brought me into the deepest, truest level of praise. The praise brought me to a place of peace that simply cannot be explained. A perfect peace. When we are so intent on having the reason for the death of a child, the peace somehow escapes us. Only when we have resolved the “why me” and replaced it with “why NOT me” will comfort fill our hearts and minds. We serve a mighty God.
I’m sorry for your loss.
It took me a while to learn how praise could be a sacrifice, but I’ve been there myself.
It’s not easy.
Your expression of faith has touched my heart this morning. To be able to learn of Christ’s love through the pain of loss...what is more God-honoring than that (it imitates what the Father experienced as He turned His back on His Own Dear Son as He suffered for our sins.).
There is a couple at our church who suffered the loss of their son to cancer (the boy was 8 at the time). They are two of the more joyous spirits in our gathering. One day the father mentioned their loss during a message he gave. Afterward, I went up to him and told him how I envied him and his wife in a way as, through their suffering they had been given opportunity to experience God’ grace in a way I could only imagine. Likewise, you too, have been granted to know God’s love in a very special way. This fellow believer’s prayer is that you, and all who have suffered in like manner will continue, through faith, to know the peace of God which passes all understanding.