Thanks for the Freepmail!!
And yes, the first step is admitting you have a problem.
I’m sure someone on the Recovery pinglist would be glad to help you out.
Given your mean, surly, alcoholic personality, your “recovery” is a distinction without much difference.
PS I don’t know any sober people besides hard leftist anti-theists like Richard Dawkins who would dare to compare Christians to bowel movements, the Taliban, jihadis, etc. That is, I don’t know anyone else who would do that besides Richard Dawkins, and you.