Does that mean that you don't believe that Jesus Christ is your Lord and Savior?
The most contriversal words every said and seldom repeated in churches is. “I am the way the truth and the life noone comes to the father except through me” That means not john smith,budda,muhammed etc. only through jesus do you have a chance no other options. The single greatest day of my life was 22 years ago baptized into christ. Been happy ever since. acts 2,37-42