I had nine years of Dominican nuns in Kindergarten through eighth grade and four years of Jesuit priests in high school with each school day starting with morning Mass.
I can’t go to another church, but I might stop being Catholic.
Depriving yourself of the Sacraments is like cutting off your nose to spite your face. It is enough to not intellectually and by practice endorse or participate in any of the shenanigans the current Church hierarchy is enamored to. This too shall pass.
“Better that only a few Catholics should be left, staunch and sincere in their religion, than that they should, remaining many, desire as it were, to be in collusion with the Church’s enemies and in conformity with the open foes of our Faith.”
-St. Peter Canisius, Doctor of the Church
The Church is the Body of Christ. Didn’t Christ go through His passion wherein all seemed lost? So too, when all seems lost in the Church, I think of Christ’s passion and the subsequent glory of His resurrection.