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A Freeper's last days...
kixx ^ | 11/17/04 | jrhepfer

Posted on 11/17/2004 6:57:42 AM PST by jrhepfer

A long time lurker and 3 year Freeper is in his last days. Freeper "kixx" known as Chip to his friends will draw his last breath in the next few days after fighting spreading lung cancer. I'm going to pass along an e-mail he wrote to my family (addressed to my wife Kim) just a few days ago when he was still alert and able to read/send e-mail.

Please pray for Chip's comfort in these last days. FreeRepublic was his home on the internet and gave him so much hope!

The little girl he speaks of in the e-mail below is my daughter.

God Bless,

Jim ---------------------------------- Kim, If I had to, I would dedicate all the time I have left re-assuring my friends that all will be okay. The saddest part of this for me is the sadness that I will eventually bring to my friends and family. I can only hope that this sadness will be a short-lived one as everyone realizes that I have gone on to a better place. A place I expect to see all my friends again one day except that I'll have a hard time recognizing any of you since you'll all be old and hunched over by then. :-)

I am at peace with my situation. A peace developed by seemingly unrelated events of the past couple of years. A peace brought on by a journey back to God undertaken years before, almost without my realizing it. Some of the "unrelated" events that brought me to this place were: Country music, 9-11, the presidential election of 2000, the act of forgiving, removing "poisonous" relationships from my life, gravitating toward like-minded, family-values friends, and culminating in the profound affect a little girl with cancer has had on one man's life.

And that very last one was the most important. Everything before got me on the road back to God. Rhiannah put me on that road for good. I had already come full circle, from my Christian youth, through my rebellious and doubting 20's and 30's, and back to believer. But Rhiannah's cancer diagnosis pushed me to the point where I had to put ALL my faith in God and Jesus.

There was no way I could allow my heart to believe that this little girl was not going to make it. And I prayed accordingly. I let God know that I truly believed that Rhiannah's cancer was, indeed, a temporary thing. And to this day, when I tell you I truly believe Rhiannah is cured, now and forever, its only because I know its so.

Little did I know, as I lay in bed at night praying for Rhiannah, that this little girl was already paving the road that would eventually lead her "Uncle Chip" to heaven. Long before I ever thought I would have a need for it. So, thanks to my little hero, when the news came that my time on earth was quickly fading, I was ready. I had the faith that everything was safe in God's hands, I had a peace overcome me that could only come from a divine source, and I'm assured that my sins have been forgiven and paid for.

I also trust that there is a purpose for my cancer. Maybe not, I don't know. But if there is a purpose for me being here at this time then I guess I'll be around till that purpose is fulfilled. Until then I'll just do what I did a few years back, put it all in God's hands and not worry about it.

My biggest regret through all of this is the trouble I've been putting my friends through. I also regret that day when so many will grieve my death. I've never thought of myself as a very significant person and if were to able to watch it all from the next life I know my reaction would be "What's all the fuss about?"

I hope this sets your heart and mind at ease.

I'll talk to you later, Chip


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KEYWORDS: cancer; faith; kixx; prayer; religion; signingoff
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God Bless you all. Feel free to shares these words of hope and peace with whomever may benefit.

Jim

1 posted on 11/17/2004 6:57:42 AM PST by jrhepfer
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To: jrhepfer

Prayers up.


2 posted on 11/17/2004 6:58:47 AM PST by TXBSAFH (Never underestimate the power of human stupidity--Robert Heinlein)
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To: jrhepfer

Dont know him but rest in peace...One of the many reasons im trying to quit smoking


3 posted on 11/17/2004 7:00:18 AM PST by skaterboy
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To: jrhepfer

Prayers for him and his family. Typing this with tears in my eyes!


4 posted on 11/17/2004 7:00:20 AM PST by areafiftyone (Democrats = the hamster is dead but the wheel is still spinning)
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To: jrhepfer

Prayers going out... I consider death to be a grand adventure. No one really knows what's on the other side waiting. Other than what I read in the Bible, what would it be like to experience the purest most perfect Being there ever was and will be.


5 posted on 11/17/2004 7:00:34 AM PST by cyborg
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To: jrhepfer

Prayers for Chip.


6 posted on 11/17/2004 7:00:40 AM PST by retrokitten (Hell yeah!)
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To: jrhepfer

Wow that is incredible. Many prayers for your daughter as well.


7 posted on 11/17/2004 7:00:45 AM PST by KJacob (I will not worry about 2008 until late 2007.)
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To: skaterboy
One of the many reasons im trying to quit smoking

Good luck with that. I'm not a smoker but my boyfriend is and I am trying to get him to stop. I realize how hard it is.

8 posted on 11/17/2004 7:01:25 AM PST by areafiftyone (Democrats = the hamster is dead but the wheel is still spinning)
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To: jrhepfer

God bless him and his family during this very trying time. May God hold him in his loving arms, and provide a peace to the family that goes beyond human understanding.


9 posted on 11/17/2004 7:01:46 AM PST by conservativecorner
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To: jrhepfer

God Bless...


10 posted on 11/17/2004 7:01:53 AM PST by easonc52
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To: jrhepfer

Done.


11 posted on 11/17/2004 7:02:26 AM PST by Bikers4Bush (Flood waters rising, heading for more conservative ground. Vote for true conservatives!)
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To: jrhepfer
John 16:20 Verily, verily, I say unto you, That ye shall weep and lament, but the world shall rejoice: and ye shall be sorrowful, but your sorrow shall be turned into joy.

Thank you Lord that Chip will soon know real joy. His sorrow will be taken away and his greatest desire will be for his friends to know the same joy.

12 posted on 11/17/2004 7:02:42 AM PST by AppyPappy (If You're Not A Part Of The Solution, There's Good Money To Be Made In Prolonging The Problem.)
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To: jrhepfer

Prayers offered for Chip, you, and your family.


13 posted on 11/17/2004 7:02:46 AM PST by Colonel_Flagg (Gloating? Us? Well, okay.)
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To: trussell

Ping to you, my dear friend.


14 posted on 11/17/2004 7:03:06 AM PST by Colonel_Flagg (Gloating? Us? Well, okay.)
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To: jrhepfer

Done


15 posted on 11/17/2004 7:03:55 AM PST by OKIEDOC (LL THE)
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To: jrhepfer

This is one of the most beautiful expressions of faith I have ever read. What a very special person. I am more deeply touched than I can say. I know that God is with him so I will just send a prayer of thanks for that.


16 posted on 11/17/2004 7:05:23 AM PST by Bahbah (Proud member of the pajamahadeen)
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To: jrhepfer

Prayers going out....


17 posted on 11/17/2004 7:05:32 AM PST by Arpege92 (We're here! We're Conservative! And we're in your face! - theDentist)
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To: jrhepfer

May the Giver of Life be close by in His splendor when the time comes to return that which is His.

Wishing God's grace upon you and yours'...


18 posted on 11/17/2004 7:05:37 AM PST by azhenfud ("He who is always looking up seldom finds others' lost change...")
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To: jrhepfer

Go with God, Chip


19 posted on 11/17/2004 7:05:57 AM PST by marty60
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To: jrhepfer

Dear God, take his hand and lead him home to you...give peace and strength to his friends and family, here, hurting now and as he leaves them...
amen


20 posted on 11/17/2004 7:06:17 AM PST by ArmyBratCutie ("Four boxes to be used in defense of liberty:soap, ballot, jury, ammo in this order!")
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To: jrhepfer

Praying for Chip's comfort and for his friends and family.


21 posted on 11/17/2004 7:06:30 AM PST by flutters (God Bless The USA)
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To: jrhepfer

Prayers for Chip and his family.


22 posted on 11/17/2004 7:07:08 AM PST by Heart of Georgia
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To: jrhepfer

What a brave man! In his last moments, he's more concerned about people that he loves than himself.


23 posted on 11/17/2004 7:07:21 AM PST by SilentServiceCPOWife (In the smiling twilight of the new political morning, the unwashed told their betters to shove it.)
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To: skaterboy

"One of the many reasons im trying to quit smoking."

One of the many reasons I have been smoke free for almost a whole year. I never thought I was a strong enough person to quit smoking....and even today, I don't really know how I did it. Perhaps some heavenly intervention?


24 posted on 11/17/2004 7:08:11 AM PST by Arpege92 (We're here! We're Conservative! And we're in your face! - theDentist)
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To: jrhepfer
Thank you for sharing this very inspirational note from Chip. While it's terribly sad to learn of his illness, Chip has just shared with us through his e-mail to your wife, his inspiration and hope which is a strong living bond with God.

God Bless Chip, his family and friends, and God Bless you, your wife and your daughter.

25 posted on 11/17/2004 7:08:45 AM PST by bd476
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To: jrhepfer

Prayers big time .....sounds as though he is at peace which is a wonderful thing.


26 posted on 11/17/2004 7:09:45 AM PST by oust the louse
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To: jrhepfer
What a wonderful testimony of faith all the way around. Praise God for your daughter and for Chip! I pray for comfort and peace in his homegoing and for God's rich blessings for all who love him.
27 posted on 11/17/2004 7:10:02 AM PST by Alamo-Girl
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To: jrhepfer

How blessed you are, Chip. Someday we will meet.


28 posted on 11/17/2004 7:11:35 AM PST by shiva
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To: jrhepfer
Chip I want you to know that all of God's children are significant and my prayers for you and all that surround you. Yes, you will leave many with sadness which, hopefully, will be healed over time. You are brave and I want you to know that everyone on this thread means every word they put to you. You are going to a better place where you will not have pain and we will all join you later.

Kathe
29 posted on 11/17/2004 7:11:41 AM PST by Two Dawgs
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To: jrhepfer
Chip I want you to know that all of God's children are significant and my prayers for you and all that surround you. Yes, you will leave many with sadness which, hopefully, will be healed over time. You are brave and I want you to know that everyone on this thread means every word they put to you. You are going to a better place where you will not have pain and we will all join you later.

Kathe
30 posted on 11/17/2004 7:11:42 AM PST by Two Dawgs
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To: jrhepfer; kixx

God bless both of you and your families. Prayers from ours to yours.


31 posted on 11/17/2004 7:12:59 AM PST by grellis ("If ketchup tasted like chocolate sprinkles, would you put it on ice cream?"--Shryke)
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To: jrhepfer

Prayers to you all, friends.


32 posted on 11/17/2004 7:13:33 AM PST by IllumiNaughtyByNature (I got political capital and I intend to spend it!)
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To: jrhepfer

Prayers for Chips comfort.....


33 posted on 11/17/2004 7:13:54 AM PST by goodnesswins (Tax cuts, Tax reform, social security reform, Supreme Court, etc.....the next 4 years.....)
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To: jrhepfer

What a beautiful letter. It's a testament to his character that he spends his last days thinking of others as shown here. Prayers being sent for Chip and his family and friends for comfort. The Peace of the Lord be with them.


34 posted on 11/17/2004 7:14:06 AM PST by Pajamajan (It's morning again in America!)
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To: jrhepfer

Prayers sent for Chip and his family. May God Bless and Keep them in his loving arms.


35 posted on 11/17/2004 7:14:36 AM PST by Polyxene (For where God built a church, there the Devil would also build a chapel - Martin Luther)
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To: skaterboy

I've been smoking for fifteen years and trying to quit for the last seven. Never quit trying! We'll beat it someday.


36 posted on 11/17/2004 7:14:39 AM PST by grellis ("If ketchup tasted like chocolate sprinkles, would you put it on ice cream?"--Shryke)
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To: jrhepfer

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37 posted on 11/17/2004 7:15:20 AM PST by WorkingClassFilth (From Ku Klux Klan to the modern era of the Koo Kleft Klan...the true RAT legacy.)
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To: jrhepfer; kixx

God Bless you on your journey, and may he be with your family and friends through this transition.


38 posted on 11/17/2004 7:15:54 AM PST by clyde260 (Public Enemy #1: Network News!)
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To: jrhepfer

God bless him, Rhiannah, and both their families. My grandmother went thru cancer and it was heart rending to watch her slip away, day by day.


39 posted on 11/17/2004 7:17:26 AM PST by RedMonqey (Keep RIGHT or get LEFT behind!!)
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To: jrhepfer

Chip, you are my hero. You are an inspiration to those of us who battle chronic illness every day of their lives. Thank you for your letter. May God's favorite angels come to escort you to Heaven! We love you. Maryxxx


40 posted on 11/17/2004 7:19:39 AM PST by Marysecretary (Thank you, Lord, for FOUR MORE YEARS!!!)
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To: skaterboy

My last day of smoking, after 25 years of it, was the day I held my Mom's hand while she took her last labored breath, in part from smoking.

If not for yourself, for your family.


41 posted on 11/17/2004 7:19:45 AM PST by Dad2Angels
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To: jrhepfer; kixx

Prayers for you and your family, jrhepfer. Save me a good seat up there, kixx!


42 posted on 11/17/2004 7:19:53 AM PST by jtminton (<><)
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To: Arpege92

I've been quit now for seven years after 23 of puffing better than a pack a day. It's not been without its tough moments, but the way I've come to see it is another minute without a smoke adds to another hour and that to another day and that to another......for seven years.

The best Quit Smoking program is "DETERMINATION". Here's hoping you best success on your venture to quit!!


43 posted on 11/17/2004 7:20:51 AM PST by azhenfud ("He who is always looking up seldom finds others' lost change...")
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To: jrhepfer
I'm sorry for the coming loss. I lost my mother to lung cancer on January 11 this year. I had the privilege of leading her to Christ in Nov. of 2003. I was there when she took her last breath... I told her as she faded, that soon she would be in the arms of God, and I'd be with her again one day.

For those of you who still doubt the REALITY of God, and Jesus Christ (I don't really believe ANYONE really doubts it, they just deny it), I would point to the fact that the scientific world now, more than ever, is coming closer and closer to the conclusion, that, the universe was CREATED... empirical science now takes the stance that evolution is IMPOSSIBLE, and the current trend is that evolution as a theory, is dying! Believe, repent, and receive the salvation that is available through Christ Jesus, you can not earn salvation, it is a free gift. With that salvation, comes grace. Grace covers us regardless of our sin, and continues to cover us throughout our lives. We are justified by the finished work of atonement of Christ, then we are sanctified daily, by the power of His Spirit. You cannot earn favor from God through your works, your works are performed in gratitude to the salvation you already have. You'll never be perfect while still in this world, however, you'll be daily conformed to righteousness, until YOU take your last breath.

God's love and peace be with you all,

Jeff
44 posted on 11/17/2004 7:21:27 AM PST by go_W_go
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Thank you, kixx, for sharing those words. I truly believe there's somebody who really needed to read them. I believe your peace and your faith have taken away their fear.

JRH, please get the family's permission to give _JHoffa the necessary information for the FR Memorial Wall. I think kixx will be pleased to know he will never be forgotten by his fellow FReepers.


45 posted on 11/17/2004 7:22:26 AM PST by JudyB1938 ("A paranoid schizophrenic is somebody who just found out what's going on." - Wm S. Burroughs, Jr.)
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To: jrhepfer

Prayers for Chip. Thanks for sharing this with us. Also, prayers for your daughter. I hope she is doing well.


46 posted on 11/17/2004 7:23:10 AM PST by gridlock (ELIMINATE PERVERSE INCENTIVES)
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prayers for Chip, family, and friends


48 posted on 11/17/2004 7:31:06 AM PST by jer2911tx (john kerry doesn't like rice, or as he calls it 'weapons of ass destruction')
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To: jrhepfer

Done.


49 posted on 11/17/2004 7:31:26 AM PST by chapin2500
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To: areafiftyone; jrhepfer

I too am sitting here with tears flowing. Prayers on the way for Chip and his family. Prayers also for Rhiannah's complete cure from her cancer.


50 posted on 11/17/2004 7:31:44 AM PST by 2nd amendment mama ( www.2asisters.org Self defense is a basic human right!)
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