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Posted on 03/05/2010 2:13:07 PM PST by Maelstorm
Im a 38-year-old person, and my life has been riddled with drug abuse and crime directly related to what happened to me as a kid, said Scott Kimball in his Southie accent, talking on the phone from his new home in New Hampshire. It seems like my past somehow always becomes my future.
What happened to Kimball is that, at age 13, he was sent to Jamaica Plains Nazareth Child Care Center and met Brother Edward Anthony Holmes.
Brother Tony was a child rapist who is now in prison for sexually molesting three children. Those abuse survivors include Kimball, who told his story of pain, crime and quest for redemption for the first time publicly to the Gazette.
Holmes pleaded guilty in 2008 to raping Kimball. Since then, Kimball and his attorneythe famous abuse-survivor advocate Mitchell Garabedianhave been seeking a financial settlement and apology from Roman Catholic Church organizations involved in the operation of the now defunct Nazareth: the Archdiocese of Boston, which ran the facility, and the Congregation of the Sacred Hearts of Jesus and Mary, where Holmes was a lay brother.
There was no response of any kind, Garabedian said, until last week, when the Boston Archdiocese finally reached out a few days after being contacted about the case by the Gazette.
This is the first time Ive heard from the Archdiocese on this matter, Garabedian said of a standard sexual abuse investigation questionnaire he said he received last week. I just think this was sent in response to [the Gazettes] call.
Archdiocese spokesperson Kelly Lynch said she could not comment on anything specific about Kimballs case due to privacy and legal concerns.
We continue to hold in our thoughts and prayers any victims of former Sacred Heart Brother Edward Holmes, Lynch wrote in a statement to the Gazette. We encourage any such persons in need of assistance to contact our Office of Pastoral Support and Outreach.
In terms of the legal process, Lynch added, the Archdiocese reiterates its commitment to conducting discussions with individual survivors in a respectful way to achieve a resolution of the pending claims.
Joseph Cavanagh Jr., an attorney representing the Congregation based in Fairhaven, Mass., said the religious order never supervised Holmes directly and was unaware of his sexual crimes until long after they happened.
We wish we knew what he was doing so he could have been stopped, Cavanagh told the Gazette. From our point of view certainly [Congregation officials] feel very badly as a result of anyone who went through anything like that.
Holmes preyed on at least two other young boys at Nazarethwhose site is now the Showa Boston Institute for Language and Culture on Moss Hillin the 1970s and 80s, both of whom he repeatedly raped for years. Holmes was convicted in those cases in 2006 and earned a five-year prison sentence. Those survivors remain anonymous. Garabedian said he has won settlements for other survivors of abuse at Nazareth.
Mr. Kimball should be proud of coming forward and revealing to the world the horrible acts committed by Brother Holmes and the painful emotions [he suffered] as a result, Garabedian said. Mr. Kimball is speaking out for many sexual abuse victims who do not yet have the strength to speak out for themselves.
Kimball said he hopes for some type of acknowledgement from church officials. But most of all, he hopes to save those children who are at risk today.
If youre a kid and somebody is doing this, you need to let somebody know. Call the police. Tell your mother, said Kimball, who kept the abuse secret for years. What happens to your life is unfathomable. It infects your personality.
You end up locked up. You end up on drugs. You end up meeting people that you didnt want to meet. You end up with a life you didnt want to have.
Anyone who believes a child may be a victim of sexual abuse or other abuse or neglect can contact the states 24-hour Child At Risk Hotline at 1-800-792-5200.
Im not saying my life wouldve been perfect. I grew up in the projects of South Boston, said Kimball. That life included domestic troubles for his parents bad enough that the Department of Social Services sent him for brief stays at Nazareth.
But Kimballs life changed dramatically on his second stint at Nazareth in 1983, where he met Holmes, a resident counselor.
Kimball recalled Holmes as quiet, soft-spoken. But when you screwed up, he was stern and loud. If you swore, everything would stop, and hed scream at the top of his lungs.
Holmeswho was already six years into his prolonged molestation of another boyhad what he called a playroom for the children at Nazareth.
He had one of the first computers, Kimball said. Late at night, hed let kids who were behaving themselves play video games on his computer. Thats where it all started for me.
Hed come up behind me and gyrate his penis against my back, Kimball said of Holmes.
Holmes didnt get farther than that type of molestation at Nazareth, Kimball said, because the boy soon left to stay with his grandmother in Southie. But then Kimball decided to be polite.
I called [Holmes] up to apologize to him, Kimball said. I was a troublemaker in there.
The apology got him an invitation to the Milton house where Holmes lived communally with other lay brothers. The confused and attention-hungry boy accepted, taking the train out to Holmess area.
Holmes orchestrated sex with Kimball multiples times over roughly two years in the living room of the house. Holmes also offered backrubs and gifts of money and cigarettes. Kimball was 13 years old when it began.
Im from South Boston and Im supposed to be straight, Kimball said, recalling his mindset at the time, which was already filling with pain and confusion. I found myself in conflict with my sexuality. It would be many years before he could realize that Holmes used his authority to his advantage and exploited me.
The sexual abuse ended when Kimball was 15 years old and Holmes abruptly moved, roughly when Nazareth shut down in 1985.
Kimball was left with a lesson: I learned that by being nice to gay men, I could get what I want, he said. Then he paused and said he knew the next part would be difficult for many people to hear.
At around age 16, I found myself hanging out at the Greyhound bus station, turning tricks, he said. There are a lot of different reasons why I did it. At the beginning, it was [for] attention.
Meantime, I have a girlfriend, and she asks me where Im getting money. Now Im lying, conning and conniving, he said.
Kimball still didnt fully understand the impact of the sexual abuse, but he had not forgotten what Holmes had done. One night when he was around 18 or 19, Kimball was drinking heavily with one of his brothers and blurted out the truth. The two of them headed to Showas campus, intending to raise hell and smash out a few windows of the hated former Nazareth center. Security guards chased them off.
Five years into his street life, Kimball was arrested for prostitution. His name was in the newspaper. Now Im getting shunned by family and friends, he recalled.
He tried to get a job, but had no work history and began lying on applications. When he did get jobs, he would quickly lose them because of problems with authority figures. And on top of that, he began to run into people I turned tricks with.
[I was] trying to fix my life, but I found myself behind the eight ball, he said. Shame filled him to the point of paranoia: I dont trust anybody. I [felt] like everybody could read my mind.
He tried a geographical curemoving to Florida. That didnt work, either. He began a life of petty crime, including stealing cars. That got him in trouble with the law. So did a domestic violence incident that came when his partner unknowingly hit a sore spot.
I assaulted my girlfriend because she called me a faggot, he said.
Booze and cocaine became Kimballs self-medicated treatments for his growing inner torment. Throughout my life, Ive been on drugs, pretty much, he said.
In 2006, now in his 30s, Kimball was sitting in a Boston jail cell on a drug charge when he opened up a newspaper and read an article about Holmes arrest for molesting children.
He had never even suspected that Holmes had abused anyone else. I thought because I was special, Kimball said. He told me he loved me. He was telling other kids the same thing.
Reading the article, he was consumed by shame and guilt. Soon Kimball found himself filing his own criminal complaint with the very prosecutors who had just put him away.
He said Suffolk County prosecutors believed that Holmes had molested him at Nazareth, but decided there was not enough evidence to convict. The case for statutory child rape in the Milton house was stronger, and Norfolk County prosecutors took on the case.
As the case dragged on, Kimball got in trouble again on a drug charge. I was on the run in North Carolina when Holmes decided to plead guilty, Kimball said.
At Holmess court hearing, Kimball was himself in handcuffs when he recited a victims impact statement he had written and memorized so he could deliver it directly. It was the first time he had laid eyes on Holmes since the abuse.
I was looking for an apology, Kimball said. I was looking for a look [that said], Scott, I set the stage for your life and for what has become of you. And I didnt get it. He didnt say a word.
There were a lot of different feelings every other minute, Kimball said of the court experience. One of those thoughts was, You told me you cared about me. And look what you did. Another thought was, Youre so lucky theyve got me in cuffs right now.
Holmes pleaded guilty to two counts of statutory child rape, according to court records and the Norfolk County District Attorneys Office. Holmes was sentenced to five years, but in such a way that it essentially added two years to his previous five-year sentence for his other crimes.
I know hes having a really hard time in there, Kimball said of Holmes. I feel OK with the sentence because Ive been in jail and I know how [fellow prisoners] treat those people Most of those guys [in prison] have been in foster homes as kids.
While reading about Holmess arrest was a revelation, Kimball said, his chaotic life remained something of a mystery to himself until Garabedian had him do a mini-autobiography and a psychological evaluation. All the dots started connecting, Kimball said, describing how he suddenly realized that even something like not being able to hold down a job tied into the abuse.
He also has an extensive psychologists report on himself. To see it on paper, this 30-page report to see [the psychologist] breaking down how much damage was doneit was mind-blowing, he said.
I usually drink or do drugs after I read this stuff, he said. I tried to kill myself a couple times by overdosing, ironically on antidepressants.
Theres no such thing as closure, Kimball said. But an apology from someoneanyone involvedwould be nice, he added. Especially nice, he said, would have been an acknowledgment from Holmes that Im not an object of fantasy. Im a person.
Kimball served his time on his drug charge. His partly estranged sister in New Hampshire agreed to help him out. He moved there recently and managed to get on Social Security. He lives alone.
I go to therapy, he said. Im seeing a woman. We break up every other day.
Im just trying to find my way through life.
This is why the Church should double its efforts to get homosexuals out of positions of authority.
Much more common than people realize. Many good decent people struggle with the legacy of abuse. No one ever finds out because we don’t create safe places for these stories.
Safe Schools Czar Kevin Jennings Favorite Book for Teens Too Lewd for Seattle Times (Parents and Teachers for Responsible Schools February 7, 2010 Linda Jordan) 1,246+ views
Press Release February 7, 2010 Safe Schools Czar Kevin Jennings Favorite Book for Teens Too Lewd for Seattle Times
Newspaper says they cant print quotes from the book because they are a family newspaper.
GLSEN founder Kevin Jennings has been queering public schools for years. Supposedly to help kids struggling with homosexual desires feel safe. But Jennings didnt limit his target group to homosexual teens. He wanted to include what he calls questioning youth. GLSENs Try it. You just might like it. Target group.
One of the books Jennings wants placed in every middle & high school is Two Teenagers in Twenty. In 1999 the Seattle chapter of GLSEN helped get that book in to Seattle Public Schools. Parents objected. At the time School Superintendent Joseph Olchefske disagreed with us. He found the book to be absolutely consistent with an educational theme. (Seattle Gay News February 1999)
The book is a collection of essays, purportedly written by homosexual teens. Under the guise of offering advice and encouragement several of them detail sexual encounters they enjoyed as children and teens, sometimes with adults! They are presented as fond memories, not as risky behavior or molestation. One writer tells the reader, I often wonder how people can say its [homosexualitys] wrong if they have never tried it. (pg 61) Any questioning youth out there?
...Attached are some of the verbatim quotes the Seattle Times found so offensive. Read them. Kevin Jennings is after your children. And it has nothing to do with safety...
Not just the Church. School systems too.
Today with our increasingly liberal attitude towards sex it is becoming harder as people are desensitized to the horrors not just of the events but of the results. Many young men and women live broken lives and have their ability to form normal relationships and lead normal lives taken from them.
It can happen anywhere...The Church just kept a cover on it for years.
An inevitable result of 1) removing sex from the sanctity of marriage, and 2) defining people by their sexual conduct. It would help if quit calling people “gay” or “homosexuals” and call them people who engage in sexual misconduct. All sexual misconduct is anti-social and ultimately self-defeating.
Schools apparently too with all of the naughty teachers getting busted every week now.
And a “Safe” Schools Czar who supports “seduction” of minors by adults.
I’m 50, been married almost 30 years, raised 4 children, have 6 grandchildren, and am a survivor of both molestation and rape. While my experiences did have a negative effect on my life, it is not a defining issue (because I have refused to allow it to be that). I have never abused drugs (or used them for that matter). I have never abused alcohol (though I do imbibe from time to time). Making and keeping friends was always a problem for me as a child/teenager. I did have anger issues that took me into my mid to late 20’s before I obtained control, but did not result in my doing anything serious. I thank God for having given me the strength to overcome my early life experiences to become who I am today.
The worst part of this with the Catholic Church is that they could form an order to run centers providing care for those abused in their care, which would be an order of magnitude more helpful than monetary payouts.
Yet they wont.
not just homosexuals but child predators no matter what their predilection is.
I'm of the opinion that the church should get rid of unrepentant homosexuals from their membership period.
I agree that the Church was complicit in these horrific crimes of abuse, but it is not “homosexuality” that is the root cause. It is predatory evil.
I am not in the camp of accepting homosexual practices on any level; I believe that homosexual “behavior” is sinful, but sodomizing and raping children is a separate evil and too often they are lumped together incorrectly.
It’s happening in local schools all too frequently here, too. What is going on with all that. scary stuff.
I hope this man gets the help he so desperately needs. He started out on the short end of the stick, and the molestation pushed him over the edge.
You are right. Calling this “gay” is one of the major problems. Decades ago, this behavior was known as “queer”. That is clearly a more accurate method of identifying homosexual behavior.
That would mean they would have to admit it...
God bless you and yours.