I’m inclined to believe your self-report.
I have no great reason to disblieve it wholesale.
However, it DOES PERSISTENTLY APPEAR that you are not all that consistent with your own precepts
nor all that honest with yourself.
You persistently appear to base your convictions and perspectives on
. . . essentially . . .
chaos.
And then to exact the most prissy of rigid pseudo-logical pontifications and pseudo-super-rationalist pretend-scientific house of cards built on that chaos.
And, then, to more or less rail at others for not subscribing to and submitting to your arbitrarily narrow and rigid application of your arbitrary definitions of “logical” and “evidence.”
I don’t think it takes more than an arm’s length perspective to see that as grossly contradictory, absurd to the max and horrifically inconsistent—as well as out of touch with the realities most of us hereon take as foundationally solid and REAL.
I keep asking myself . . . what is God perceived to have done or not done that was so horrible that the result was this convoluted hodge-podge of rationalized avoidance???
Whence cometh this seemingly haughty, super-lofty perspective that acts so freely authoritative and justified in taking God to task for running things contrary to the holder of the perspective’s sensibilities?
In my experience, pseudo-super-rationalists tend to be chronically, bone-marrowly angry at the God they deny the existence of
and/or
reared in such a way that they end up having monumental chips on their shoulders egging them on to jousting with God as though they were God’s equals.
I’ve read your protestations to the contrary . . . about how benignly wonderful you are in ‘REAL LIFE’ etc.
Yet the evidence on our screens seems to be all on the other side, in terms of the above observations.
At least, occasionally, it is mildly interesting.
I don't delve into endless speculations why you appear to be the way you appear to be, what seems to drive you, your morals, thinking process, apparent (dis)honesty, state of salvation, etc.
Neither should you make it about me. Thank you.
Thank you for all of your insights, dear brother in Christ!