14 Years Later, Mystery Still Remains in the Death of Vince Foster

14 yers ago today, on July 20, 1993, the body of Vincent Walker Foster, Jr. was found in a Virginia park, next to a civil war cannon, with an unidentified revolver lodged in the right hand. Vincent Foster died of a small-caliber gunshot wound to his head.

Vince Foster was not only deputy White House counsel but also the personal attorney to Bill and Hillary Clinton. On the night of Foster’s death, top Clinton aides made a frantic effort to enter and remove documents from his West Wing office. In the days that followed, federal investigators were stymied in their investigation of Foster’s office and strange death.

The following happened within weeks of his death. Vince Foster finally files the missing Whitewater tax returns. On July 19, FBI director William Sessions is fired. Clinton personally orders him by phone to turn in his FBI property and leave headquarters.

That evening, Clinton security aide Jerry Parks' wife Jane says she overhears a heated telephone conversation with Vince Foster in which her husband says, "You can't give Hillary those files, they've got my name all over them."

That same day, the FBI raids David Hale's Little Rock office and seizes documents including those relating to Capital-Management.

Just hours after the search warrant authorizing the raid is signed by a federal magistrate in Little Rock, Vince Foster apparently drives to Ft. Marcy Park.

Foster was found dead of an apparent gunshot wound to the head in Ft. Marcy Park. His unoccupied car, a 1989 Honda, was found in the park's parking lot. Several witnesses - before and after the arrival of the park police - have claimed they saw a briefcase in Foster's car.

A so-called suicide note was found in an office briefcase that had been searched and found to be empty after Foster’s death. The note was torn into 27 pieces. Yet an FBI examination found no trace of Foster’s fingerprints on the note and three independent handwriting experts determined that Foster's suicide note, was a forgery.

The Raid of Vince Foster’s Office While the U.S. Park Police studied the body, Foster's office at the White House was being looted.

Secret Service agent Henry O' Neill watched as Hillary Clinton's chief of staff, Margaret Williams, carried boxes of papers out of Vincent Foster's office before the Park Police showed up to seal it, yet the official identification of Vincent Foster's body by Craig Livingstone did not take place until 10PM!

Another Secret Serviceman saw Craig Livingston remove items from Vincent Foster's office in violation of the official seal. Witnesses also saw Bernard Nussbaum in Foster's office as well. Three witnesses noted that Patsy Thomason, director of the White House's Office of Administration, was desperate to find the combination to Vincent Foster's safe. Ms. Thomason finally opened the safe, apparently with the help of a special "MIG" technical team signed into the White House in the late hours. Two envelopes reported to be in the safe by Foster's secretary Deborah Gorham, addressed to Janet Reno and to William Kennedy III, were never seen again. When asked the next day regarding rumors of the safe opening, Mack McLarty told reporters Foster's office did not even have a safe, a claim immediately shot down by former occupants of that office.

The next day, when the Park Police arrived for the official search of Vincent Foster's office, they were shocked to learn that Nussbaum, Thomason and Williams had entered the office. Conflicts channeled through Janet Reno's Department of Justice resulted in the Park Police merely sitting outside Foster's office while Bernard Nussbaum continued his own search of Foster's office. During this search, he opened and upended Vincent Foster's briefcase, showing it to be empty. Three days later, it would be claimed that this same briefcase was where the torn up suicide note was discovered.

The boxes of documents removed from Foster's office by Hillary Clinton's chief of staff, Margaret Williams, were taken to the private residence area of the White House! Eventually, only 54 pages emerged.

One set of billing records, under subpoena for two years, and thought to have originated in Foster's office, turned up unexpectedly in the private quarters of the White House, with Hillary's fingerprints on them.

Bill Clinton was unavailable, being on camera with Larry King. But Hillary Clinton, who had only the day before diverted her planned return to Washington D.C. to Little Rock, was on the phone from Little Rock to someone at the White House in the moments before the looting took place.

The death of Vince Foster is very unsettling. There is an amazing amount of inconsistent information surrounding his death, the investigation and the autopsy. And, of course, his close relationship with Hillary was intriguing. Many books have claimed that the two were lovers for several years.

To date, several unanswered questions still remain. What did the White House know and when did they know it? Another question: If Foster was not identified as a White House official until at least an hour and a half after police arrived, why were police officers associated with an elite federal unit on the scene within 45 minutes? Evidence suggests that White House officials were informed of Foster's death, at least an hour before they claim to have been initially notified.

The FBI never officially investigated the case but simply signed off on the Park Police "probe." The bureau had little choice.

Later, Robert Fiske, selected by Clinton’s counsel Bernie Nussbaum and Janet Reno, quickly confirmed the Park Police probe as a suicide. Yet, no fewer than three of the paramedics on the scene indicated in reports or testimony that the crime scene was consistent with a murder scene, not a suicide.

? A careful FBI microscopic investigation of Foster’s shoes found not a trace of soil or grass stains on them, though he supposedly walked several hundred yards through wooded Fort Marcy Park to where his body was found. [Years later, Starr’s investigation found plenty of soil and grass stains. Rodriguez charged that the shoes were tampered with to produce such "evidence."]

? Foster was found with little blood around his body – and despite claims that he fired the gun into his mouth, practically no blood was found on the front of his shirt.

? Foster was found with a 1913 revolver no one in his family could claim, with two serial numbers, made from the parts of three or more guns. None of Foster’s fingerprints were found on the gun. The bullet that supposedly killed Foster was never found, despite intensive searches.

? The first witness to find the body insisted that there had been no gun near the body. The memory in Foster's pager had been erased. Critical evidence began to vanish. Many witnesses were harassed. Others were simply ignored. There were even suggestions that the body had been moved, and a Secret Service memo surfaced which reported that Foster's body had been found in his car! The official reports were self-contradictory.

? All of the X-rays taken during the autopsy are missing. Complete crime scene photos don’t exist. The Park Police said all the photos were "accidentally" overexposed. A series of close-up Polaroids, which Favish is suing for, remain.

? A briefcase in the car of Vincent Foster was removed after U.S. Park Police arrived at his death scene. The briefcase, which may have carried important documents, was never listed on official evidence reports compiled by park police who conducted the first investigation into the White House deputy counsel's death.

Hillary Clinton was trying to gain leverage over her husband, possibly in relation to future divorce proceedings. It is possible Mrs. Clinton wanted to get to the bottom of persistent rumours about her husband's philandering before subjecting herself and her daughter to the media glare of a presidential campaign. At the time, Mrs Clinton and Vince Foster were partners at the Rose Law firm.

Did Hillary Clinton have an affair with Little Rock lawyer Vincent Foster? According to retired Arkansas State Trooper Larry Patterson, "There is no doubt in my mind that there was a long, ongoing sexual relationship between Hillary Clinton and Vince Foster."

Patterson, who guarded the Clintons for more than six years, made the new disclosures on the audiotape set "More than Sex: The Secrets of Bill and Hillary Clinton Revealed"

Patterson said that on one occasion, at a birthday party for Hillary Clinton, he saw Foster touch Hillary in private areas of the body twice. Patterson said his belief about Hillary and Vince was formed after years of observation during the frequent meetings between the two, when Bill was out of town, and the stories of other troopers.

Patterson gives eyewitness details of several occasions upon which he saw Vince and Hillary in compromising situations.

On the day of Vince Foster’s death, Patterson said he learned about the death before the Park Police even found Foster’s body and hours before the White House said they were informed. Patterson’s information, corroborated by another trooper, exposes a cover-up bigger than Watergate.

A case arose from an overall conspiracy to obstruct justice in connection with federal investigations into the death of deputy White House counsel Vincent W. Foster.

Patrick Knowlton was in Ft. Marcy Park the afternoon that Vincent Foster died. What Knowlton saw and what happened to him afterwards is one of the most disturbing stories of the whole Clinton saga. You can read the testimony here

Miguel Rodriguez was a prosecutor on the staff of Kenneth Starr. His attempts to uncover the truth in the Vincent Foster death case were repeatedly foiled, and he was the subject of planted stories undermining his credibility and implying that he was unstable. Rodriguez eventually resigned.

After learning of Fosters death, Jane Parks, the wife of Jerry Parks claims that her husband said, "I'm a dead man". Parks had collected detailed data on Clinton's sexual escapades, including pictures and dates. His wife claims federal agents subsequently removed his files and computer, and that Bill Clinton still owed him $81,000.

>>>>This is compounded by the fact the family seems to be satisfied with the results.

The Lisa Foster New Yorker Interview
LIFE AFTER VINCE NEW YORKER MAGAZINE

For the first time, Lisa Foster discusses her ordeal in the
two years since the death of her husband, Vincent Foster,
and how she made her own investigation into why he died.

by Peter J. Boyer

ON the second anniversary of Vincent Foster’s death, his
the widow, Lisa, drove from Little Rock to his home town of
Hope, Arkansas, and sat at his grave and cried. Then she
visited her late husband’s mother and advised her not to
watch televised coverage of the Senate Whitewater committee,
whose members were spending the week verbally ransacking
Foster’s White House office and showily examining his empty
briefcase. A few days after the committee adjourned, in
early August, I “went to Little Rock to visit with Lisa
Foster. She had watched part ot the Senate proceeding and
found it appalling — not in any particular but in the fact
of its existence. She had hoped that Senate hearings con-
ducted a year ago would conclude the Vince Foster “mystery”
and end the speculations about scandal and conspiracy sur-
rounding his death. They did not. Nor did a report last
year by Robert Fiske, Jr. the first Whitewater independent
council, who had found that Foster’s death was a suicide
unrelated to Presidential scandal. A new Congress and a new
independent counsel, Kenneth Starr, launched their own in-
quiries, and the conspiracy mill has never stopped. “I could
not have predicted that it would continue,” she says. “I
I kept thinking it was going to end, and it never did.”

Lisa went home to Arkansas from Washington after Vince’s
death, leaving the place that she believes destroyed her
husband and ruined her life. She had never heard of White-
water, but within months it was to become a synonym for Bill
Clinton’s undoing, and Vince was posthumously cast in a key
role in a complex web of alleged scandal and coverup. He had
been Bill Clinton’s boyhood chum and Hillary Clinton’s con-
fidant and law partner, in the White House, he was one of
their most trusted aides. The revelation, five months later,
that Whitewater files had been removed from Foster’s office
after his death suggested that he knew some damaging secret,
and that it might even have pushed him to suicide. That tan-
talizing twist nourished a conspiracy industry on talk radio
, on the cyberspace networks, and even in the mainstream
press, which spun out scenarios explaining Foster’s death.
There were rumors of a “safe house,” where Foster supposedly
died; stories that he was gay or was Hillary’s lover; and
speculation that he was a secret agent for Israel or somehow
involved in a government drug-running scheme.

Lisa Foster has remained publicly silent about her husband’s
death for two years. She is now convinced that it was a
suicide, yet there were moments when she couldn’t be certain
about why he had been driven so far. When the rumors about
Vince came rushing out, she sometimes thought, What if its
true? “That’s one reason I never wanted to talk,” she says.
“I thought, As soon as I talk, they’ll come up with some-
thing else they’ve found, and something I swore wouId never
be true they’ll tell me is true, and I won’t be able to
defeat it.” At one point, even Vince’s mother asked her,
“Lisa, do you think he could have done anything?”

Lisa hates that doubt and has overcome it, having under-
taken her own investigation of her husband’s death. But her
certainty about Vince is a hard comfort, dearly purchased.
To believe completely in him, she says, she had to learn to
believe in the despair that killed him.

BEFORE Lisa Foster’s husband went to Washington with the
Clintons, in January, 1993, the expectations of her life had
been fully met. One of six children, she was reared a Catho-
lic in the Protestant city of Nashville. Her father, an in-
surance broker provided a solidly comfortable middle-class
existence, with membership in the country club, and society
debuts for his daughters. Lisa was educated by Dominican
nuns through high school, and then went to Sweet Briar, a
women’s college in the Old Virginia tradition. Social life
centered on big date weekends, when fraternity boys from the
University of Virginia and from Davidson and from Washington
and Lee would caravan in and party. It was on such a weekend
in Lisa’s sophomore year that she met Vince Foster, a sopho-
more at Davidson, on a blind date. “We had an absolute ball”
she recalls, “I kissed him on the first date — I’d probably
never done that in my life. I took one look at him and I
thought, Oh, my God, you’re the best-lookin’ thing I’ve ever
seen. I just went head over heels in love with him.” Vince
seemed so smart, and so interested in the world; Lisa, want-
ing to impress him, ordered a subscription to TIME. When
Vince told his mother about Lisa, he said, “She’s a math
major and she’s a Catholic. She’s not pretty, but she’s kind
of cute.” Vince brought her home to Hope, and there his
father, waiting outside the family’s big white house, pegged
his future daughter-in-law exactly right, and won her for-
ever. “Well, I think she’s beautiful,” he said. “She looks
just like Doris Day.”

They were married in St. Henry Catholic Church in Nashville
in April, 1968, when Vince was in his first year of law
school, at Vanderbilt. His father had wanted him to go into
the family real-estate business, but Vince, deeply reticent
by nature, knew that he was no salesman, and he had chosen
law. At the height of the American buildup in Vietnam, Vince
joined the Arkansas National Guard; that required his
regular presence in Hope, so he transferred to the Univer-
sity of Arkansas, in Fayetteville. Lisa got a job as a lib-
rarian, and Vince spent every day at the law-school library,
developing a work ethic that inspired awe. “He’d work all
day while the other law-school husbands were home watching
the soaps,” Lisa says. He overprepared himself to such an
extent that at exam time studying became superfluous. He
graduated first in his class, and earned the top score on
the state bar exam. Eager to start his career, he skipped
commencement and went to work at the small but growing Rose
Law Firm, in Little Rock.

Lisa was eager to get started, too. “All I ever, ever wanted
to do was have children,” she says. “And then, when I met
Vince, all I wanted to do was be his wife and have children.
I knew I might have to work, and I was enough of a feminist
even then to want to prove that I could. And I did, and that
was fine. But I didn’t really want to have a career.” Four
years after they were married, they had their first child,
Vincent, Jr., and he was followed by a girl, Laura, and by
another boy, John (whom they called by his middle name,
Brugh). Lisa did volunteer work for the Junior League,
played tennis at the Little Rock Country Club, and taught
swimming to local kids, including Chelsea Clinton. As Vince
prospered at the Rose firm, he and Lisa bought a house in
the Heights, an area near the club which proved to be the
neighborhood of choice for future Clinton insiders. The
Fosters’ house, a big white colonial, was redecorated by
their next-door neighbor, Kaki Hockersmith, who would one
day design the living quarters of Hillary Clinton’s White
House. People considered the presidency of the state bar to
be Vince’s for the asking, and, beyond that, he seemed a
natural choice for the federal bench.

In their twenty-five years together, Lisa and Vince fash-
ioned a sort of compact that guided their lives: Vince
worked furiously, and made all the big decisions; Lisa pro-
vided the support system, running their home, minding the
kids, and organizing their social life.Over time, this del-
ineation of roles became quite comfortable, and the line
seldom blurred. Vince only rarely involved himself in the
usual household battles with the kids, and Lisa kept her
distance from his work. When Vince had a big case, he pre-
pared for it frantically, day and night, right up until his
court date, all the while bemoaning his chances, declaring
that he was certain to lose. But he almost invariably won,
or settled; he seldom lost. Lisa learned that this was just
Vince’s way of working, and it further deepened the line;
one day, it would also obscure the signs of desperation.

LISA FOSTER was a friend and contemporary of Hillary
Clinton’s. They belonged to the same social set, in one of
the most insular towns in America, yet their lives could
hardly have been more different. Hillary was Little Rock’s
model of the nineteen-eighties superwoman — a high-powered
lawyer, the state’s First Lady, the mother of a little girl.
Lisa was a stay-at-home mom. In the culture of their place
and time? Lisa’s life was very much the norm, and Hillary’s
an aberration. Bill Clinton’s Yankee-lawyer wife, who defi-
antly kept her maiden name, seemed indifferent to the
customs of her husband’s home state. (Some of the Little
Rock women had a beauty tip for Hillary’s hair: Bleach it.)

It was Vince, not Lisa, who made the friendship between the
Fosters and the Clintons. Bill had lived next door to him
as a boy, and Vince met Hillary when they both did work for
the Legal Aid Society, in the late seventies. After Hillary
joined the Rose Law Firm, she and Vince and Webster Hubbell,
another senior partner, became best friends, a troika. Vince
valued his workplace relationship with Hillary, and when
office politics reared he became her protector. Lisa and
Hillary didn’t lunch and shop together, but the Fosters were
frequent guests at the Governor’s Mansion. The Clintons went
to the Fosters’ pool parties and had more than one Christmas
dinner with them. Lisa and Hillary sometimes discussed the
different nature of their lives, and perhaps their exchanges
held the hint of an edge. Lisa marvelled at Hillary’s abil-
ity to manage a career and a child while serving as Arkan-
sas’s First Lady. “I don’t know how you do it,” she recalls
saying once to Hillary, and Hillary replied, “Lisa, I don’t
know how you do it. I could never stay home with three kids
all day.”

On Election Night in 1992, Vince and Lisa were part of the
inner circle of Arkansans celebrating Clinton’s victory at
the Governor’s Mansion. It was a joyous night for the
Fosters, uncomplicated by any suspicion that their lives
would be changed by Clinton’s success. The thought of going
to Washington, Lisa says, “never entered my mind.” Once,
back in Vince’s law-school days, Lisa had asked Vince, who
was interested in the political issues of the time, if he
would ever consider entering politics himself, and his an-
swer was firm: no. Intensely cautious and inward, Vince
lacked the politician’s nature. “He didn’t want to be a
politician, because he didn’t like to be in a good mood all
the time,” Lisa says. “And, obviously, he wasn’t.”

Yet during the weeks of transition, as Clinton assembled his
government in Little Rock, the prospect of Vince’s joining
the team inevitably arose. He would come home from a lunch
with Hillary and raise with Lisa the issue of going to
Washington. Other Arkansans were leaping aboard, and Lisa
told her husband, “I’m afraid if you don’t do it you’ll
always be sorry.” Then came word that Clinton had chosen
Mack McLarty to be the White House chief of staff. Mack and
Vince were old, close friends from Hope, and Lisa and Mack’s
wife, Donna McLarty, seved on volunteer boards together.
That decided it. On Christmas Eve, Clinton made Foster a
formal offer, and when Foster accepted it the President-
elect asked, “Are you sure you want to do this?” The job,
deputy White House counsel, seemed perfect for Foster. He
hated the spotlight, but as deputy to thc chief counsel,
Bernard Nussbaum, he would hold an insider’s position of
influence and trust. Besides, he was taken by the notion of
a higher calling; it was a moment, soon to evaporate, when
Clinton’s promise of change carried the force of real possi-
bility. Yes, Foster was sure he wanted to do it. He and most
of the other Arkansans who followed the new, activist Presi-
dent and his wife to Washington genuinely believed that they
were on a mission to do good.

At first, it seemed to Lisa that Vince was happy in Washing-
ton, maybe even a little too happy. “He was calling me, say-
ing things like ‘Last night we had cocktails on the Truman
balcony and Judy Collins was there, and we all went out to
dinner,’” Lisa recalls. She was not there, because Vince had
insisted that she stay behind in Little Rock. Two of their
children, Vincent and Laura, were away at college, but the
youngest, Brugh, was in the middle of his junior year in
high school, and Vince feared that an interruption might
hinder his chances or getting into a good college. The fam-
ily would join Vince at the end of the school year, and in
the meantime he would live with his sister, Sheila, who was
also going to work for the Clinton Administration.

Lisa was unhappy with this arrangement, and unreserved about
voicing her feelings. It was the first time they had ever
been separated. “I was angry at Vince about ninety per cent
of the time,” she says. “I wasn’t angry at him for going. I
was just angry at him for ignoring us and leaving us behind,
and making me have to deal with everything, all the decis-
ions, and he was going up and getting all the so-called
glory.” She and the children went to Washington for the In-
auguration, but after the swearing-in Vince went straight to
to the White House to work, leaving his wife and children at
the curb, uncertain how they would get back to Sheila’s
house. Lisa was irritated by this, and didn’t even go to the
ball. Back in Little Rock, she found the prospect of running
the household and preparing for the family’s departure over-
whelming. She had never expected to move out of her house,
and when it was finally time to pack up she sat down on the
floor and cried. She called Vince, and he told her to find a
packer in the Yellow Pages. Lisa says that she feels guilty
about the way she behaved during those months, especially in
the light of what she soon discovered about Vince’s life in
Washington. “I whined about the whole thing,” she says. “We
had a lot of conversations over the phone that were sort of
short, curt conversations, and we realized that we were both
so tense about what we had to do that it was not easy for us
to console each other.”

Lisa soon came to feel more optimistic about their new life.
During Brugh’s spring break, she went to Washington & found
a small house in Georgetown. It needed some renovation, but
it was in a nice neighborhood — on Cambridge Place, next
door to Senator Richard Shelby, of Alabama — and it was (by
Washington standards) affordable. She moved Vince in, and
got Brugh into the elite Sidwell Friends School, which
Chelsea Clinton attends, for his senior year. Back in Little
Rock, she managed to get their belongings organized for the
move and the house rented.

School ended, and as Lisa prepared to leave Little Rock one
more packing chore presented itself. Vince’s father, a hunt-
er, had died two years earlier, and Vince had taken his col-
lection of guns. Lisa looked at the shotguns — “I’ll bet
you there were ten of them in the house,” she says — and
deemed them too troublesome to pack up (Vince wasn’t much of
a hunter anyway), but she didn’t know what to do with them.
She worried that if she left the shotguns in the attic the
heat might cause the shells to explode. Finally, she bought
a lock, put the shotguns in Vince’s wine closet, and locked
it. There were several handguns, too, including a .38
special, with an etched handle, which Vince’s father had
kept by his bed. But they were small and easy to move, so
Lisa packed them and took them along to Washington.

Almost from the beginning, Vince realized he should have
stayed in Little Rock. Like all the other Clinton appointees
, he discovered that going to work in the White House after
twelve years of Republican rule was a bit like occupying
scorched earth. The counsel’s offices had been left bare by
the Bush people. At the Rose Law Firm, Vince had worked be-
hind the burnished wood door of a spacious corner office; in
the White House, his office had one window and was so small
that the copying machine had to be installed in the hallway.

But the physical discomfort was secondary to the psychic
discomfort, especially when things went wrong, and every-
thing, it seemed, was going wrong. The aborted attempts,
involving Zoe Baird and Kimba Wood, to fill the Attorney
General job, and the ungraceful retreat from Lani Guinier as
head of the Justice Department’s civil-rights division, were
more than just political embarrassments; they helped to est-
ablish the impression that the Clinton people talked a good
game but weren’t up to the grownup job of governing. These
were problems that occurred on Foster’s turf, and he was the
sort of man to take such failures personally, and hard. He
even assumed blame for Waco, somehow believing that the dis-
astrous F.B.I. raid on the Branch Davidians’ compound was
his fault. Vince and the rest of the Clinton team, Lisa
notes, “weren’t up there to do bad things, and everything —
just like Waco — just blew up in their faces, and it abso-
lutely destroyed him.”

Back in Little Rock, at the Rose Law Firm, Vince had had the
luxury of coping with one problem at a time. In Washington,
Lisa says, “he couldn’t relax and make decisions; everything
was immediate, and it had to be correct, because of the
stakes involved. The intense scrutiny that they were getting
made you feel like no matter what you do you’re going to get
criticized.” She adds, “It was just like some dog nippin’ at
your ankles all the time.”

And then there was Travelgate. Soon he after the Clinton
team took over the White House, they found that the Travel
Office — which handled, among other things, transportation
for the press corps — was in disarray; staff members were
even suspected of embezzlement and kickbacks. Under Foster’s
direction, the counsel’s office ordered an independent audit
, and it resulted in the firing of seven staff members (ult-
imately, only one was indicted, and will go on trial next
month); in a rather stupid move, the White House named a
Clinton relative to temporarily manage some Travel Office
business. Bill Kennedy, another Rose lawyer on the counsel
staff, had talked to the F.B.I. about a possible criminal
investigation of the travel staff, and the White House was
accused of abusing the Justice Department to cover up its
clumsy cronyism. An internal inquiry was ordered, and Ken-
nedy was reprimanded. Some people in the White House thought
that Foster should have been, too, but he escaped direct
rebuke. Foster was angered both by the reprimand to Kennedy
and by the threat to him, and felt deeply wronged by the
White House.

Things got worse, with the publication in June of the first
of three now famous Wall Street Journal editorials that
were harshly critical of Foster and the Arkansas “mores”
that he and other Rose alumni supposedly represented. The
Journal struck at Foster on a number of fronts, ranging from
his disinclination to provide the paper with a photograph of
himself (in violation of the Freedom of Information Act, the
Journal asserted) to his brief aimed at keeping Hillary’s
health-care-commission meetings closed to the press and the
public. In what soon proved a cruel irony, the Journal ex-
ploded Foster’s anonymity by printing the outline of a man
filled with a question mark, under the headline “ Who is
VlNCENT FOSTER? “

Two weeks after Lisa and the kids arrived in Washington,
just as Travelgate was unfolding, Vince told her that he had
made a mistake and had decided that he should resign. Some-
thing was discernibly amiss, but Lisa didn’t see it. “You
can’t quit,” she told him. “I just got here.” She wanted a
taste of the glamour she thought Vince had been enjoying,
but it was not forthcoming. “He didn’t want to go out,” she
says. “He didn’t want to do anything fun. He wanted me to
stay home and cook. He never came home until nine or ten
o’clock at night then went straight to bed, and he got up
and left at a quarter to eight in the morning. By the time
we got there, it was basically awful. It was like: Well, I
just moved out of my house, and I moved up here and he is
unhappy. I have to make him happy. This is going to have to
get better.”

The two older Foster children got summer jobs, and Brugh did
volunteer work, as was required by Sidwell Friends. Lisa
undertook the redecoration of the house and played tennis
with a friend at the Arlington Y. “I was kind of getting to
like it,” she says. “I loved having a place and fixing it
up. I had all my cute living-room furniture in there, and I
was beginning to think it was going to be possible for us to
live there.”

At the time, Lisa never considered the possibility that
Vince was suffering from depression. In her world, emotional
problems were not discussed, and depression in its clinical
sense was an alien concept. “I knew he was down,” she says.
“I just didn’t know that people committed suicide. I’d never
had any experience with this at all — I hated it when peo-
ple said he was depressed, because I didn’t know what de-
pression was.” Perhaps she was too ready to dismiss Vince’s
worries over Travelgate as his characteristic overreaction
to work. “I kept telling him that it wasn’t any big deal.
Nobody cared about it.” She knew that the press was torment-
ing Clinton, but she thought that was overblown, too. “The
press had it all out of proportion, just like Vince had it
all out of proportion.”

Looking back on their tense, brief time together in Washing-
ton, Lisa is filled with images of a desperately troubled
man. He lost his appetite, and some nights he didn’t sleep
at all. “He got up one morning and said, ‘I did not sleep
one wink last night.’ He looked awful. And I said, ‘Oh
Vince, surely you slept some, you probably just don’t feel
like you did.’ And he said, ‘No, I didn’t sleep at all. I
just don’t think I can go back down there.’ And the next
thing I knew he was dressed and had on his coat and tie and
he looked like a million dollars. And I thought, Well, then,
tonight you’ll sleep.”

He was losing weight, and Lisa remembers that he began ab-
sently wringing his hands, incessantly rubbing the thumb and
forefinger of one hand into the palm of the other. At a
meeting at Brugh’s school, Vince slumped in his chair, Lisa
recalls, and she thought he looked just the way his father
looked in the weeks before he died, of cancer. “All I knew
to do was tell him I didn’t think it was that big a deal and
that everything would be O.K., and not to worry about it so
much, and to take care of himself and try to get more rest.”

As a college freshman in 1963, Lisa had travelled to Wash-
ington for John Kennedy’s funeral. Now she went to the
church where Kennedy had worshipped — Holy Trinity, in
Georgetown — hoping to find help for her husband. “I’d go
there every Sunday and I’d pray for Vince,” she says. “I’d
say, ‘Please help him make these hard decisions, and help
him make the right decisions, so that he won’t be so upset.”

One evening in early July, Vince again told Lisa that he
meant to resign. He was still unable to sleep. Worried,
perhaps even a bit exasperated, she told him she was tired
of hearing about how miserably he was failing in his job,
and she urged him to take the offensive; she suggested that
he write down some of the reasons that his difficulties were
not his fault. He went upstairs, sat on the bed, and, on a
sheet of yellow legal paper, wrote the list of complaints
thatwould soon be found, torn into twentyseven pieces, at
the bottom of his briefcase, by an associate White House
counsel, Steve Neuwirth. It was not a suicide note, Lisa
says, but a kind of defense brief. “After that, he said one
night, ‘I haven’t resigned yet. I’ve just written my opening
argument,”’ she recalls. “And I think that when he wrote
those things down it was as if he were defending himself in
what he thought was going to be some kind of congressional
investigation. And the Wall Street Journal was saying, ‘Who
is Vince Foster?’ and I think in some ways he felt he had to
defend himself. I was trying to tell him that he didn’t,
that he hadn’t done anything wrong, that he should just bas-
ically carry on and it would all go away. But it didn’t.”

Lisa still had hope, and it seemed to her that this diffi-
cult period in Washington in some ways had brought her
closer to Vince. “He was talking to me so much, and I
thought, Well really we have each other, and I’ll just be
there for him, and maybe that will be the good that comes
out of this — that we will get closer. He needs me, because
he doesn’t have anybody else.” Lisa even talked Vince into
taking a break from Washington, a weekend trip to an inn on
Maryland’s Eastern Shore.

The day they left for the shore, Friday, July 16th, was a
particularly bad one for Vince. He told Lisa that his heart
felt as though it were pounding out of his chest, and that
day he went to the White House medical unit for a blood-
pressure test. His pressure measured 132/84, well within
normal limits. Realizing that there was nothing wrong with
his heart, he telephoned his sister, Sheila, and told her
that he thought he was suffering from depression. She gave
him the phone numbers of three psychiatrists. (One of them
later testified, at the first round of Senate hearings, that
Sheila had spoken to him about her brother, telling him that
Vince held a very sensitive position at the White House and
his depression was “directly related to highly sensitive and
confidential matters.”) Around lunchtime, Vince called one
of the names on the list, but didn’t leave a message. He
tried again later, and again left no message. Apparently em-
barrassed, and concerned that a diagnosis of mental illness
would complete the ruin of his reputation, he charged the
calls to his home phone.

Vince was visibly tense as he and Lisa drove out of town.
Traffic was bad, and en route they realized that they had
left Vince’s suitcase at home, by the back door. His mood
didn’t improve much when they got to the shore. Again, he
seemed single-mindedly focussed on getting out of the White
House. At dinner that night, Lisa recalls, “I asked him if
he felt trapped, and tears came to his eyes, and he cried.”

The next morning, she remembers Vince sprawled on a park
lawn overlooking Chesapeake Bay, negotiating their departure
date. They now agreed that they would not stay for the full
Clinton term, but she hoped to remain in Washington at least
until Brugh graduated from Sidwell, the following year.
Vince wanted to leave immediately. Finally, they decided
that Vince would stay in his job until Christmas, then find
other work in Washington until Brugh graduated.

Vince’s spirits seemed to lift after that, and they even
talked about living on a houseboat until they returned to
Little Rock. Back at the inn, they were awakened from a nap
by a call from Webster Hubbell’s wife, Suzy who was staying
with her husband at the home of mutual friends nearby.
Hubbell invited the Fosters to join them for dinner that
night and for the day on Sunday, and they did. Again, Lisa
thought she saw Vince brightening. But something still seem-
ed to be off-key. She told Vince that she intended to tele-
phone their family doctor in Little Rock, Larry Watkins, to
see if he could suggest anything. Whenever Vince had a cold
or the flu, he asked Lisa to call Dr. Watkins for him, but
this time he told her he would make the call himself. On
Monday, he did call Watkins, and told him he thought he
might need something for depression. Watkins prescribed the
antidepressant Desyrel and telephoned in the order to a
Washington pharmacy. Vince did not tell Lisa he had made the
call. “He never, ever mentioned the word ‘depression’ to
me,” she says, “or anything even remotely resembling mental
illness. Ever.”

That day, July 19th, Foster arrived at his office with three
stamped, addressed envelopes. His secretary noticed the ad-
dresses on two of them: one was to his life-insurance com-
pany, and the other was to his mother, in Hope. The envelope
to thc insurance company was subsequently found to contain
his premium payment; the one to his mother contained papers
completing the transfer of oil leases from his father’s
estate to his and Lisa’s name.

That evening, at home, Vince received a call from the Presi-
dent inviting him to watch a movie at the White House. He
declined. “That’s good,” Lisa told him. “You need a good
night’s sleep.” Besides, she had prepared a family meal.
That afternoon, the medication from Dr. Watkins, 30, tablets
50 milligrams each, had been delivered to the house. Vince
took one tablet. Once again, Lisa seemed to sense a lighten-
ing in his mood. “He came into the kitchen, put his arm
around me, and kind of joked with me,” she recalls. “He went
to the wine cabinet and said, ‘Maybe that’s what I need,
some tannin.’ Then we went up and got in bed and watched
TV.” They talked about their weekend away, and about trying
to go away again the next weekend. Lisa asked Vince if he
would do something special for her — go on a date with her
the following night, Tuesday. Vince said that he thought he
might have to attend a birthday dinner that night but that
he would try.

On Tuesday, Vince left for work at 8 A.M., and Lisa noted
that he failed to kiss her goodbye. She started to say some-
thing, but stopped herself. “I was trying to act so chipper”
she says. “I didn’t want to make a big deal. But he just had
his back to me, so stiff. And he just walked out.” She
played tennis at eight-thirtv and then went to a charity
meeting with Donna McLarty. Afterward, the two women went to
the lounge of the Four Seasons Hotel in Georgetown, and
drank Perrier and sounded a theme that had become increas-
ingly common among the expatriate Arkansans — the nastiness
of Washington politics.

Lisa eventually went home, and around five o’clock she
called the White House to find out about the birthday party,
and was told that it was not until the following week. She
figured that Vince would be home soon, for their date.

But Vince didn’t come home, so Lisa called the White House
again, and this time she was told that the President was
appearing on “Larry King Live.” “I said, ‘Oh, he must be
with a bunch of people watching the President on “Larry
King,” Lisa recalls. She and Laura went upstairs to watch
the King show. A few minutes later, the doorbell rang, and
Laura went to the door. It was some volunteers from Green-
peace, soliciting donations.

On television, King said that the President had graciously
consented to extend his visit for another half hour. Lisa
recalls that she groaned and thought, Oh, come on, Bill!
You’ve got to learn when to quit! But a moment later the
President and King came back on the screen and King said
that Clinton had another engagement, and had to leave short-
ly. “He had this funny look on his face, the President did,”
she says.

The doorbell rang again. This time when Laura answered it,
there were two officers from the Park Police, a man and a
woman. “Mother! Mother! Something awful. Come quick,” she
cried. The man said to Lisa, “Mrs. Foster, your husband,
Vincent, is dead.”

Lisa thought the officer had made a mistake. “I said, ‘No,
no, that’s my son Vincent.’ And he said, ‘No, your husband
Vincent is dead.’” She protested again that the officer must
mean Vincent, Jr., because he and Brugh had gone to borrow
their uncle’s van, and Lisa imagined that there had been an
accident. “And they said, ‘No, your husband has shot him-
self.’” She is still remorseful about her first response to
that realization. She says, “The saddest thing is that I had
this little bit of relief that it wasn’t Vincent.”

Once the news registered, Lisa says, she didn’t question it.
“I never thought he’d been murdered. The worst possible
thing had happened, but it was like everything came
together.” Lisa was told that Vince had shot himselfwith a
38 special, which she realized was one of the guns she had
packed up and taken to Washington. She wanted to know whet-
her her husband had shot himself in the mouth or at the
temple. “I didn’t know that he knew how to kill himself,”
she says. “But the children reminded me that he had just
watched ‘A Few Good Men,’ and that is how the guy in the
movie did it — he shot himself in the mouth.”

In the chaos of that night, with the police and friends from
the White House in her home, Lisa tried to console her
daughter. Laura had been Vince’s pride, and she adored him.
When school was over that spring, she had spent a month with
her father — before her mother arrived —cooking and clean-
ing for him, and acting as his companion at official funct-
ions. Lisa now told her, “Laura, you had a better relation-
ship with your father in twenty-one years than most people
ever have. You’re just going to have to let that come
through.”

Webster Hubbell and his wife took care of the move back to
Arkansas. As Lisa left Washington, she felt a wave of
revulsion against the place. “I can remember looking at
Georgetown and thinking it was the ugliest set of buildings
I had ever seen,” she says. She was determined to get
through the funeral without breaking down; she stared ahead,
focussing on objects and avoiding eye contact.

Her friends wondered how she would manage, with two children
in college and a third on his way, but financial survival
was not what worried her. “Everybody thought, Poor Lisa and
the kids won’t have any insurance money,” she recalls,
because Vince’s death was a suicide. But his policy had a
suicide clause, allowing death-benefit payment to survivors
if the insured party had held the policy for a prescribed
period, and Vince had. And over the years he had built a
trust fund for each of the children. “Unfortunately — or
fortunately, I don’t know which — Vince was the type of
person who probably knew exactly what he was doing in that
respect,” Lisa says. “He probably thought we’d be well taken
care of and maybe we’d be better off, financially, if he
were dead, because if he went to a psychiatrist he’d never
have another job.”

At first, Lisa was preoccupied not with the nature of Vinces
death but with tremendous despair at his loss. When she
thought of life without him, she found herself embracing the
idea of death. “I wanted to die after he died,” she says.
“There were a lot of times when I thought, This isn’t worth
it.” She remembers being on an airplane with one of her
sisters after Vince died and having to fly through a tornado
-spewing storm system. Her sister was frightened. “Don’t
worry,” Lisa told her. “You’re with me, and God’s not gonna
let me die, it would be too easy. I would just love to die.”
But these thoughts inevitably led to images of her children.
“I couldn’t stand the idea of my children having to go
through it more than once. It’s just the most awful thing in
the world, and I can’t let them think that I’d do it, too. I
mean, somehow, I’ve got to stay alive, for them.”

Lisa felt angry, too, at everyone — the Clintons, Vince,
politicians, those Arkansans who stayed in Washington. She
would see a picture of the Wnite House on the news, and get
livid. “I hated everything. I was mad as hell.” She was an-
griest, perhaps, at God. She had always been a devout
Catholic, never questioning, for example, that her own
children would be raised in her faith, even though Vince was
a Presbyterian. But when he died she suffered a crisis of
faith, and has not yet emerged from it. At first, she quest-
ioned God. “Why didn’t Vince run out of gas? Why didn’t he
have a car wreck? Why didn’t he call? Why did you have to
let him get so bad off when all he wanted to do was go up
there and help his country and do some good things for
people?” And then she stopped praying. She thought of Coler-
idge’s Ancient Mariner, who surveyed his dead shipmates and
was stricken by the fact of his own survival: “I looked to
heaven and tried to pray;/But or ever a prayer had gusht,/A
wicked whisper came, and made/My heart as dry as dust.”

“Well, that’s exactly the way I felt,” she says. “You can’t
pray, because you don’t know what you’re praying for. You’re
mad as hell at God, and so you don’t know what to say. You
don’t want to say, ‘Help me,’ because you think He’s screwed
you. What are you going to say — ‘I praise you because
you’re great, even though you’ve done this to me’?”

She kept going to church, because she didn’t know how to
stop going. But she wore jeans and a sweatshirt, and sat in
silence through the service. People sent her cards urging
her to turn to Jesus: “If I got one card about Jesus, I must
have gotten a thousand. And I thought, Well, where was Jesus
when I needed him? I don’t know why God did this to me. I
wouldn’t do this to somebody I loved. You know, we’re sup-
posed to be children of God — I wouldn’t do something like
this to one of my children. It wasn’t like we did something
bad and we deserved it. I just didn’t understand it.”

The morning after Vince killed himself; she telephoned
Bernard Nussbaum, searching for an explanation, and asked,
“Bernie, did you fire Vince yesterday?” Nussbaum said of
course he hadn’t, but later told Robert Fiske’s office that
he had noticed that Vince had become less productive, and
that he had urged him to take a vacation.

Lisa says, “I was trying to figure out what could possibly
have happened that put him over the edge. I kept thinking,
Now, what could have made him eat lunch and go out three or
fours hours later and shoot himself?” After Vince’s funeral,
she returned to Washington to talk to the Park Police, and
Nussbaum gave her a partial answer, showing her Vince’s
torn-up note.

Even as various law-enforcement agencies and congressional
hearings were investigating Vince’s death, Lisa undertook an
inquiry of her own. She went through every box of personal
files from Vince’s office which had been returned to her.
“If you saw them, you’d believe even more what I’m telling
you,” she says. “There was a file for his father, a file for
his mother, a file for the children’s medical records. He
was a perfect husband, keeping perfect records.” She exam-
ined his American Express bills for the previous six years;
she studied their telephone bill, and when she saw a number
she didn’t recognize (such as that of the psychiatrist) she
dialled it. “I did all of it, every last piece of scrap
paper, name, number — oh, I investigated everything. As a
matter of fact, when the F.B.I. wanted my phone bill I’d
already figured it all out for them. I had the name of
everybody he called.

Curious about why Foster had an appointment scheduled for
July 21st — the day after his death with Jim Lyons, a
Colorado attorney who had organized the Clintons’ early
responses to the Whitewater allegations, she called Lyons
and asked him what the meeting was to be about. He told her
that Vince was worried about a possible congressional hear-
ing on the Travelgate matter.

Lisa has satisfied herself that whitewater was not among
Vince’s anxieties — a view that echoes the White House line
and the conclusion of the Fiske report. Nevertheless, it is
reasonable to suppose that Foster was well aware the
Clintons could face future political embarassments over
their Little Rock land deal. As Hillary Clinton’s former law
partner and the Clintons’ friend, Vince was also handling
some of their personal legal work, including their taxes on
Whitewater from 1990 to 1992. Just a few weeks ago, in
advance of this summer’s hearings, it was revealed that
Foster had written a memo in which he described Whitewater
as “a can of worms you shouldn’t open.”

Lisa says that her search helped her cope with the wilder
speculative scenarios about Vince — the tales of secret
Swiss bank accounts, of involvement in a C.I.A. - sponsored
drug-smuggling operation, of the alleged use of a “safe
house,” and so on. “I got the last six years of American
Express when they started talking about him flying to Swit-
zerland, just so I could say, ‘I know he didn’t do it,
because its right here before me,”’ she says. “There is no
secret. Anything that I know about his death I have told the
Park Police, Robert Fiske, and Ken Starr, and there is no
secret. There is no conspiracy. There’s nothing to tell.”

Lisa was not always able to make such assertions. Just a few
weeks after Vince died, she was notified that his account at
the White House credit union was overdrawn. She had emptied
the account, and deposited the monev in her account in
Arkansas, but Bill Kennedy called her and said that Vince’s
account hadn’t had as much money in it as Lisa thought. He
had been told, he said, that Vince had made several large
cash withdrawals, of several thousand dollars each, from the
account. “I went berserk,” Lisa says. “I said, ‘I don’t know
anything about that.’ And I thought, God, what if he was
being blackmailed, or maybe he had a girlfriend in some
apartment somewhere, and I didn’t know about it. My mind was
just racing.” Lisa says that she searched her records from
the credit union and found the receipts from Vince’s auto-
matic withdrawals, and discovered a mistake — thirty-five
dollar withdrawals had been misread as thirty-five-hundred
dollar withdrawals. “But it upset me so much I virtually
could not see,” she says. “I thought I was going to faint.”

One of her sisters came over, and she called another sister.
Together, the next day, they took Lisa to a psychiatrist.
She has been seeing him ever since. In therapy, she began
working out answers to some of the remaining questions about
Vince’s death, such as why he hadn’t left a suicide note.
“Do you know that about niney per cent of suicides do not
leave notes?” she says. “People who commit suicide don’t
want anybody to know they’re going to do it. I mean, why do
you think he went to Fort Marcy Park? If he’d wanted to hurt
me or the President, he’d have done it right in front of our
noses. But we’d have tried to stop him.”

In December of 1993, her first Christmas without Vince, she
was home alone and received a call from her Washington
attorney. He told her that “A Current Affair,” a tabloid TV
show, was about to broadcast a rumor that he knew could
upset her — allegations by Arkansas state troopers that
Vince and Hillary Clinton had had an affair. Once again,
Lisa broke down. She left her house, sobbing, and walked
three blocks to a Catholic seminary, and there she sat be-
neath a statue of the Blessed Mother. “I cried my eyes out
for forty-five minutes,” she recalls. “I thought, This is
more than I can take.” But she then resolved not to be
defeated by doubt, or even by grief. She thought about
teaching math, something she had started doing before the
family left Arkansas, and she went home to keep a tutoring
appointment. This year, she started teaching math part time
at a private school in Little Rock.

She had dealt with the Hillary question before, and so had
Vince. The rumors of an affair first circulated during the
1992 campaign, when Bill Clinton was besieged bv allegations
of infidelity. Vince gathered the family and told them that
the rumor about him and Hillary was false. “They’re going to
say that we had an affair,” Vince said. “I don’t see why I
can’t be friends with a woman at work without somebody
assuming we had an affair.”

Lisa says that she accepts Vince’s statement. “One reason I
believe that there’s nothing to it is the way he treated me.
I mean, I just don’t think somebody is a loving husband and
treats me the way he would treat me if he’s having an
affair, whether its with Hillary or with anybody else. And
the second reason is, I don’t think Hillary would do it. I
mean, she’s the mother of Chelsea, and there’s Bill. The
type of friendship she and Vince had was not a romantic one.
I think professionally he was very close to her. I think he
had a great deal of respect for her and for her mind. I
think in a lot of ways he felt sort of protective of her,
like when they Iost a case. I just think that they were
close friends.”

She says that she considers Hillary a friend, but that she
and Hillary have not discussed the issue of the alleged
affair. “I mean, would you expect her to deny it? What good
does denying do? It only elevates the accusation to some
level of credibility and gives it some respect that its
not due.”

In the end, Lisa says, she has come to her own accommodation
with this and the other speculations about her late husband.
“There were certain things I know, because I was there, and
there are some things I don’t know — that I can never prove
one way or the other, except by faith. I just have faith in
Vince and faith in Hillary that they did not have an affair.
If they did, who cares now? You know? Who cares? I sincerely
believe that they didn’t. But that doesn’t matter to me —
Vince is dead. It does matter to me that they’re using him.
I know that he didn’t do anything dishonest, out of line, or
as ridiculous as laundering money or bank accounts.”

After the “Current Affair” broadcast, Lisa told her psychia-
trist that she was still shaken by it. “I said, ‘This is
just outrageous. I can’t believe that on top of losing Vince
I have to deal with this.” The doctor suggested that she try
Prozac. The antidepressant gave her an understanding, for
the first time, of Vince and his illness. “That’s when I
realized that it was a disease,” she says. “Vince was just
down, worn out, depressed. Lack of serotonin. He was just
totally depleted. Prozac would have helped him sleep, cope,
get up in the morning — deal with things without feeling
such despair.”

The course of Vince’s depression, obscure to her even in the
face of stark warnings, suddenly became clear: “Having been
so low myself and come out of it, I realized how low he must
have been, and how he didn’t have help. I had a lot of help
to get me out of it — psychiatrists and doctors and lawyers
and priests and nuns and friends, everybody at every turn
helping me.”

Lisa believes that she has arrived at an answer to the most
baffling question about Vince’s last day. After he had a
cheeseburger, French fries, and a Coke in his office, he
walked out carrying his suit jacket, and said to one of the
secretaries, “I’ll be back.” That was at 1 P.M. His body
was found in Fort Marcy Park, in suburban Virginia, at 5:45
P.M. Where had he been during those unaccounted-for hours?

Lisa thinks that when Vince went to the White House parking
lot, climbed into their car, and drove off, he may have had
the gun with him but was not certain that he would kill
himself. “I think he probably spent those three or four
hours driving around trying to decide. “She believes that
Vince suddenly “flooded” — that his problems came rushing
upon him, magnifying his despair. “I imagine that Vince was
driving around and the thought of going back to the White
House — it just made him claustrophobic. I think he was on
his way to a nervous breakdown. I think he was just holding
himself together.”

Her children, she says, will have to reach their own under-
standing of their father’s death. Vincent, who is selling
securities in Atlanta, and Brugh, who is entering his soph-
omore year in college, have occasionally suspected that
there is something they still don’t know about their
father’s suicide. But Laura, like Lisa, has found some
solace in the diagnosis of depression. “I think it made it
easier,” Laura says. “It’s a whole lot easier seeing him as
sick and having a chemical imbalance than to feel ‘Oh, my
God, he did this and he knew what he was doing.’ It’s easier
to say it wasn’t his fault.”

One day last month, Lisa says, she quietly returned to Wash-
ington and thought, God, this place is pretty. Why did I
never notice it?

The town had not changed in her absence. That very week, the
former Justice Department official Philip Heymann was testi-
fying before the Senate Whitewater panel, saying he had
warned Nussbaum two days after Vincent’s death that it would
be a “terrible mistake” to keep investigators from going
through the papers in Vince’s office. On the other side of
the Capitol, a House committee was gearing up for its own
Whitewater examination. The next week saw the birth of a new
speculatlon about Vince Foster — the assertion, in a New
York Post column, that he killed himself in the White House
parking lot, not in Fort Marcy Park.

But, unlikely as it must once have seemed to Lisa, Washing-
ton was about to make her happy. She had returned to town
for Senate confirmation hearings on the appointment to the
federal bench of a Little Rock lawyer named Jim Moody. The
Senate Judiciary Committee approved Moody’s appointment
without dissent, followed by confirmation from the full
Senate. Moody is a former colleague of President Clinton’s,
and he and Lisa plan to marry at the end of this year.

Lisa and Vince had known Jim and his wife, Jo Ann, but the
couples had not been close friends, and didn’t see each
other often. The Moodys came to Vince’s burial service, and
Lisa saw them there. She was shocked to hear a few months
later that Jo Ann had died suddenly in her sleep. As Lisa
began to get well, she started dating, and Moody — a man
who, like Vince, had a high reputation — was one of those
who called on her. They were comfortable together, his
circle was her circle, and Lisa realized that she was enjoy-
ing herself again. When Jim asked her to marry him, she did
not hesitate to say yes.

By then, she had nearly completed a remarkable, if unsought,
transformation from the woman who was once utterly content
with a Junior League and country-club existence into one who
had faced — and faced down — a horrible nightmare. But she
remains Lisa Foster not Hillary Clinton: she is someone who
has spent her life wanting to be, and being, someone’s wife.
That is her identity. When I asked her if she surprised
herself at all by planning a new marriage, she said no, she
is surprised only at having fallen ln love again.

She and Jim plan to live in her house — Vince’s house —
when they are married. Sometimes Lisa looks up and sees
Vince. (”I was out there weeding and I looked over and saw
him standing there,” she says, “I still see him in my bed.”)
Jim’s office will be in a converted garage at the rear of
the house, in which the boxes labelled “VWF Personal” are
currently scattered around. When I asked Lisa how the
children felt about the marriage, she said, “You’ll have to
ask them.”

Laura, who was standing nearby, said, “I think it’d be
easier if it weren’t the same house.” This surprised Lisa.
There followed some discussion about bathrooms and about
redecorating versus moving. Lisa had the final word. “I have
this feeling about some things, and that is, I can’t do any-
thing about the fact that Vince is gone,” she said. “The
only thing I can do is try to make the best of what we have.
I have found a wonderful man whom I love and who loves me,
and who will be good to my children. And just because its
going to be an adjustment is no reason not to do it. The
whole damned thing’s been an adjustment. So we will adjust.”

Earlier that day, after Lisa’s morning tennis at the athle-
tic club, she and I had lunch at Trio’s, one of Little
Rock’s tonier cafes. This is the life she had before Wash-
ington, and the life she wants to have again. She knows that
it will never be quite the same, because too many of her
friends who went to Washington with Bill Clinton came back
disgraced, embarrassed, or broken-hearted. She also knows
that some might have expected her to remain the grieving
widow a little longer. “I don’t want to forget Vince, and I
don’t plan to,” she said. “But I do plan on loving whoever’s
going to be my husband as much as I loved Vince, and being,
I hope, a better wife and enjoying whatever life I have. But
that is not to take away from Vince. That is more to honor
him, as far as I’m concerned.”

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