I’d love to be able to make something of the time I have. Do you know anybody with endocrine disease? I don’t mean to be rude, but if you don’t, then you don’t have a clue as to the hardships we go through every single day, straining just to be alert and forcing our brains to work as best they can, nevermind the near complete lack of energy we feel from the moment we wake up.
I remember when I was a kid, every time I said a bad word that nobody but myself could year, I used to profusely say “I’m sorry, sorry, sorry” because I thought that god could hear me, anyway, and would strike me dead if I didn’t immediately apologize. Nothing happened to me, and more profanity started to creep in during my teenage years. I’m in the latter half of my 20s, and I feel like god has forgotten me completely.
I imagine a world without god every single day, because I come on here and get my local, state, national and international news, and I see what’s happening in my area, state, country, and all around the world, and do you know what I see? A world that has no spiritual or otherworldy power watching over it. And those instances have little to no bearing on my own life.
I see myself still living with my parents, with no hope for a future. Logically, what is left to think except that there is nobody watching over me and trying to guide my life?
I think God could well be saying: “Hey Wasted! You aren’t wasted at all! But let ME explain it to YOU!”
I know nothing whatsoever about your struggles, all I can say is, I am very sorry to hear how hard it is. My only advice can be, don’t torture yourself on top of it trying to appease or reach a figment of someone else’s imagination. It only adds to your burden. It really is a waste of years.
And yet there are many people who believe who are also struggling with conditions for which there are no medical answers.
I have one such condition, which was only diagnosed a couple years ago. My diet basically consists of chicken and oats. On occasion, I can have beef and potatoes and a few bites of only a couple other foods. Almost all fruits and vegetables are off limits as they make me very sick and cause allergic type reactions.
It did cause quite a struggle with my faith and sadly, some of the current teaching in Christianity today is partly to blame for that.
But God’s long term character is not based on my short term circumstances. Some day I will be free of this. If not through healing in this life, then when I die.
If you are willing to listen, here is a link to a sermon series where a pastor, who is a medical doctor, is dealing with these hard questions.
South Shore Community Church
Pastor Frank Burns
Hey God! I was just wondering.....?
http://www.southshorechurch.com/pages/currentseries.cfm
I have some of the same issues with endrocrine/adrenal that you seem to have. Menopause really drove this home to me when I could not even get out of the bed.....this after a lifetime of barely being able to pull myself out of bed....major fatigue all my life.
Did a bit of research and found Safe Uses of Cortisol by William McK. Jefferies.
http://www.amazon.com/Safe-Uses-Cortisol-William-Jefferies/dp/0398075018
Cortisol has given me a big energy boost but I recommend saliva testing before taking it. Ask your doctor about it. I also recommend juicing as in the movie “Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead.” I have begun doing this and feel so much better...a raw fruit and veggie only diet is the best way to go for people like us...juicing will heal the adrenals and they are the source of the fatigue. Heal them and heal everything else.
Do some research and don’t take anything you’ve got lying down. God gave you a brain so use it, use it, use it.
Best,
jodyel