Everything has a beginning and eventually an end. So what or Who created God? I still can't wrap my mind around the answer that He always was and all you have to do is believe..........
Your thoughts parallel mine. I have no problem believing that He always existed, but I often question the teaching that He has a personal interest in me. I have not experienced it and I cannot force myself to believe it.
Well, God created time and we are placed in it so it is well nigh impossible for us to consider no time, no beginning or no end, any more than we can conceive or what is outside the universe.
Or the Trinity and how that works.
Finite and mortal cannot comprehend the infinite and immortal.
So, yeah, then it just gets down to faith. But fortunately, God does not require us to understand Him. He just wants us to trust Him, which is what we do when we don't understand.