Posted on 03/01/2011 9:05:12 PM PST by PhilosopherStone1000
So I'm 50. I have a very smart, very beautiful daughter who is a junior in high school.
Every day, I wake up and say to myself "Crap. I'm still alive."
I feel like I've done my job. I have give birth to and raised an extraordinary human being. There's nothing I can do now to advance her career or life.
How much does God expect me to endure? When can I say "I've had enough?" At what point is it rational to jump off that bridge simply because one is tired of putting up with all the crap?
Come to my house and I’ll take you to visit a neighbor where a family member took himself out 2 weeks ago. You can see for yourself what it will be like for your family if you do the same.
You might be surprised the love you would be to some new friend you find in the next few weeks. Keep loving and don’t worry about the rest.
I'm sorry I'm not much more help. But if I've learned anything, it's that all the stuff that seems important when you are younger - the stuff that keeps you pumped up for the weekend or for vacations - really isn't. Find happiness in what you do have. Make the most out of that cup of coffee in the morning, learn to take walks and see the little details around you that you never noticed before. Take Warren Zevon's basic advice after he learned he had terminal cancer - enjoy every sandwich. All of us eventually figure out what's on the other side. Don't rush that.
Your time, your support, advise, strength...
At her age, did you really never need or want help again for the rest of your life?
My best friend lost her dad to a heart attack when she was 17. Her Dad was also my Dad’s best friend and my Dad is her Godfather. While my Dad has stepped in in many ways into the father’s role (he gave her away at her wedding, was the executor of the estate and her children call him Grandpa Steve) sometimes she admits when my Dad fills in the role she misses her Dad even more.
I almost tried suicide when I was 27. My life was worse than the pits. The pits would have been a step up.
I didn’t even change my mind to stop the initial try. Something happened that required my attention and I couldn’t do it when I had planned.
I made a rambling call to my best friend who called my parents who got me help.
When I think of all that’s happened to me since then it scares me to think how much I missed.
It was a combination of therapy and help with family and friends from serious to teasing (for example my brother saying “Wouldn’t you be poed if the Cubs won the world series the year after you died?”
And I still see someone once a week.
Nah. You just need to pick better places to fall over...(8^D)
Thanks for the advice — I will check into DMSO...
I don't know, but every time you wake up in the morning you get your answer from Him Whom you ask.
Yeah, go ahead and check out, it’s not she’s ever going to need your support again.
As for you wanting to end it all, you are not the Lone Ranger. And as time goes on and things get worse, there will be many more in the same boat as you.
We, in the United States, live in the best Country that the world has ever known. But , as we continue to kick God out, this will not remain the case. We will descend to the level to the "third world" Nations such as Hataii. We, as a Nation said,via a majority vote, that we wished to begin that trip on November 4, 2008.
I’m 44...my Dad passed away in 2009 at age 69. There isn’t much I wouldn’t give for a chance to spend more time with him. My FIL passed away in 2006...my wife feels the same way.
As they say, MAN UP. You have plenty left to give your daughter, just by being alive.
Stop being an ass.
He is either suffering a huge hangover after passing out or he has accomplished being the biggest stumbling block for his family/daughter that they will ever have to suffer for a lifetime. Jerk.
If he is still alive, I'm gonna kick his jack-waggon ten ways to Sunday.
I say "her" because men may father a child, or sire a child, but they don't give birth to a child.
You are a good man, and deserve better. Call me.
Even better..it will be a fair fight between two women. I expect women to be tougher about emotional stuff. My mamma was tougher on me than my Dad. She used to say," I brought you into this world, I can take you out."
I'm feeling ticked about this today ..we were all helpless to do anything to help through the stinking Internet waves.
If you are going to just play around about taking your life..then leave others out of it. Otherwise..get your butt on the telephone. I've run across a bunch of jerks on the net who never really wanted to commit suicide..they just had the worst social skills known to man.
Like I said...if he/she is alive, I'm gonna kick their butt for putting everyone through this.
If you are still alive you have not yet fulfilled your destiny. Perhaps raising your daughter to the age of 16 was not the only thing you were meant to do. Maybe you were meant to touch another person’s life for a moment or two. Maybe you will save a neighbor from a burning home or a stranger from an auto accident. Maybe you will fight in a struggle to save your country from tyrants and destruction. Life is a journey, embrace the ride.
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