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Calif. Man Posts Suicide Note on Facebook
San Francisco Chronicle ^ | http://www.sfgate.com/news/article/Calif-man-posts-suicide-note-on-Facebook-4151849.php

Posted on 12/29/2012 12:36:11 AM PST by nickcarraway

A Central California man died after posting a suicide note on Facebook and then driving his car onto railroad tracks about an hour later, as friends and family frantically tried to get in touch with him.

Antjuan Miguel Colvin, 21, was struck by a train going about 75 mph in Hughson on Christmas night and pronounced dead at the scene, Stanislaus County sheriff's Sgt. Anthony Bejaran told the Modesto Bee (http://bit.ly/Vbowd4 ).

(Excerpt) Read more at sfgate.com ...


TOPICS: Computers/Internet; Local News; Weird Stuff
KEYWORDS: antjuanmiguelcolvin; california; facebook; hughson; rail; sourcetitlenoturl; stanislauscounty; suicide

1 posted on 12/29/2012 12:36:17 AM PST by nickcarraway
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To: nickcarraway

Obviously Congress needs to ban this Facebook thing in order to protect us all!


2 posted on 12/29/2012 12:44:09 AM PST by faithhopecharity
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To: nickcarraway

Sad. RIP.


3 posted on 12/29/2012 12:48:07 AM PST by fieldmarshaldj (Resist We Much)
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To: nickcarraway
"I hide all of my problems behind my smile," the quote read. "Behind my smile is a world of pain. You think you know me, but you have no idea."

Very sad. Sad that he didn't feel like he could talk to someone. Sorry for him, his family and friends, and the people on the train.

4 posted on 12/29/2012 1:21:06 AM PST by beaversmom
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To: nickcarraway
What a selfish jerk-wad! Train conductors don't deserve that abuse. Those sick people that commit suicide by cop are the worst though!
5 posted on 12/29/2012 1:59:58 AM PST by Casie (Chuck Norris 2016)
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To: Casie

It’s obvious that you have no understanding whatsoever of normal suicide (suicide by cop being a totally different animal). Selfishness has nothing to do with it.


6 posted on 12/29/2012 2:02:07 AM PST by BlessedBeGod
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To: fieldmarshaldj

Its always so sad when someone commits suicide. May he rest in peace...


7 posted on 12/29/2012 2:03:15 AM PST by goat granny
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To: Casie
My my aren't you the compassionate one. I take it your not too religious.
8 posted on 12/29/2012 2:05:49 AM PST by goat granny
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To: BlessedBeGod
Suicide by train conductor is pretty similar to suicide by cop. Both guys just wanted to go to work and get home to their kids. But like you said, I don't know anything. I guess I'm ok with that. :p
9 posted on 12/29/2012 2:18:50 AM PST by Casie (Chuck Norris 2016)
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To: goat granny

Oops, I offended you as well? I am a proud Southern Baptist and I know life is a gift.


10 posted on 12/29/2012 2:21:53 AM PST by Casie (Chuck Norris 2016)
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To: BlessedBeGod

What the heck is a “normal suicide?”


11 posted on 12/29/2012 2:26:40 AM PST by LurkingSince1943 (Former War Criminal)
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To: Casie
Sweet cheeks, you don't have the power to offend me, you just made yourself look like a jerk...especially if any freepers that read this has had such a tragedy happen in their family..
12 posted on 12/29/2012 2:34:25 AM PST by goat granny
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To: Casie
Blurbs from recent articles about the stress of suicides on train conductors (There are many more if you wanna Google it):

"Fatal train collisions tough on engineers"

"Oct 16, 2011 – Train engineer William Smith screamed like crazy for the young woman to move..."

"Many live with guilt, post-traumatic stress disorder, anger and fear for years..."

"or they realize, 'I'm not the same person I was before the accident."

"Railroad workers suffer trauma of fatal crashes, too"

"June 9, 2012 – Recording of train engineer Donald Tate's call after a fatal accident..."

"Railroad companies to offer a form of grief and stress..."

"She wrote that the stress of the train wreck caused her hair to fall out..."

13 posted on 12/29/2012 2:35:58 AM PST by Casie (Chuck Norris 2016)
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To: goat granny

Don’t call me sweet cheeks. It’s silly. :p And I still contend that the man who ran his car into a train was selfish and hurt innocent people that will have to live with trauma and scars they don’t deserve. Thats all I meant. I did not know that made me a jerk. I’ve been called worse. :D


14 posted on 12/29/2012 2:40:30 AM PST by Casie (Chuck Norris 2016)
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To: Casie

You’re right, of course. This dead guy should have overdosed or shot himself rather than traumatize those on this train. Those dissing you have misplaced empathies.


15 posted on 12/29/2012 2:55:41 AM PST by Theo (May Christ be exalted above all.)
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To: Casie
You could have been called worse by me, but don't want to get banned. Calling you sweet cheeks is far better than what you call someone who committees suicide...I use that for just the dumbest remarks from people that think I give them the power to offend me....
16 posted on 12/29/2012 2:56:23 AM PST by goat granny
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To: BlessedBeGod; Casie
Selfishness has nothing to do with it.

Yes it does. They think no one else has pain like they do - because they didn't care to ask or know. It's all about them. He could have, actually, helped someone else if he spoke of his pain but he was too focused on himself. There always is someone worst off. He didn't care to know, an island unto himself. So the way he handles pain is with a smile to deliberately deceive others - You can't see what is inside of ME. He may have been focusing on what he didn't have instead of what he did have!

It's always better to be honest than deceive. Don't you agree? He's was 23 with a job and able to work, a car, family/friends and living in America! He's already had more than most.

17 posted on 12/29/2012 3:04:05 AM PST by presently no screen name
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To: goat granny
I feel you are truly a very kind woman, and that my position on this ugly situation just really angers you. That is ok. :)

Not that it matters, but the first funeral I ever attended was my Uncle Edgie. He shot himself in the head when I was 12. He loved his family enough to leave a note on the door instructing them to call the police and not to enter. We all thought that was good of him. I did not know him very well. My father said he made some bad choices. But he did write that note, and for that he was forgiven.

I still feel involving innocent people in a suicide is horribly horribly wrong and selfish. And I know that train engineers are very afraid of collisions. I don't know what else to say. I won't defend myself if you still need to vent at me.

18 posted on 12/29/2012 3:17:04 AM PST by Casie (Chuck Norris 2016)
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To: presently no screen name
Yes it does. They think no one else has pain like they do - because they didn't care to ask or know. It's all about them. He could have, actually, helped someone else if he spoke of his pain but he was too focused on himself. There always is someone worst off. He didn't care to know, an island unto himself. So the way he handles pain is with a smile to deliberately deceive others - You can't see what is inside of ME. He may have been focusing on what he didn't have instead of what he did have!

It's easy to stand on the outside and analyze...I was on that track one time (not the train track)...Once you get focused, you can't see anything else...Fortunately, I had a fried who watched me like a hawk til things got back to somewhat normal...

19 posted on 12/29/2012 3:42:09 AM PST by Iscool
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To: Iscool
Once you get focused, you can't see anything else..

That's the point - focused on yourself and it doesn't happen over night. Your friend wasn't focused on himself but on another! That's the way it should be. But I do know it is very easy to slide into the self pity mode. We must deliberately stop it even if we *think* we have every reason to be there. Because it's lie and believing a lie never ends well.

I wanted to address the part that it is indeed a selfish act. He didn't become selfish that day, he lived with it and dwelt on it in his self-pity mode.

I like your friend, tell him 'thanks' for me. And, I know you, you KNOW God wanted you here! We all have 'Someone' else to focus on - the pain He went through for us - is greater than we can imagine much less experience.

And, yes, it is easier to stand on the outside and he made sure his family/friends where on the outside. One can't go where they aren't allowed. I pray my family/friends never put me in that situation because of pride (you can't know I feel damaged). Did he feel only he needed to be perfect or have a perfect life? And only he should have it? No one is better than another no matter what they have or don't think they have. IMO, if one has Jesus, they have it all. And an eternity more than those who don't have HIM.

20 posted on 12/29/2012 4:48:18 AM PST by presently no screen name
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To: Casie

You aren’t a jerk but, hopefully, jerked some sense into others. How someone’s deliberate act can cause others to live in pain - the same thing he wanted to escape from.


21 posted on 12/29/2012 4:55:37 AM PST by presently no screen name
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To: Casie

that explains much.


22 posted on 12/29/2012 5:38:08 AM PST by RitchieAprile (the obstreperous gentleman..)
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To: AdmSmith; AnonymousConservative; Berosus; bigheadfred; Bockscar; ColdOne; Convert from ECUSA; ...

We really need to implement Train Control.

But “Antjuan”? It was only a matter of time before someone with a made-up name that stupid would off themselves.

Thanks nickcarraway.

http://www.sportressofblogitude.com/2012/10/17/comedy-centrals-key-peele-lampoon-football-player-introductions-video/

http://www.yardbarker.com/all_sports/articles/comedy_centrals_key_peele_lampoon_football_player_introductions_video/11987509

http://www.avclub.com/articles/episode-202,85915/


23 posted on 12/29/2012 7:19:56 AM PST by SunkenCiv (Romney would have been worse, if you're a dumb ass.)
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To: fieldmarshaldj

Sad my ass....Intentionally pulling in front of a train traveling at 75mph endangered every person within 200 yards, including those on the train.

This guy was a total self centered AH.


24 posted on 12/29/2012 7:51:38 AM PST by dragnet2 (Diversion and evasion are tools of deceit)
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To: goat granny

How stupid are you?

If the train derailed and brutally killed several dozen unsuspecting innocents, would ya still have compassion for this self centered AH?


25 posted on 12/29/2012 7:54:24 AM PST by dragnet2 (Diversion and evasion are tools of deceit)
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To: dragnet2; goat granny
From the article.........

Three of the 98 passengers on board suffered minor injuries and were treated at the scene, according to the sheriff's department.

It could have been a lot worse.

26 posted on 12/29/2012 8:03:24 AM PST by hole_n_one
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To: presently no screen name

Had this guy over the last year or so that I played online games with. “Knowing” someone online is a bit hard, but I gleaned from his commentary that he suffered from health issues, chronic pain. He was married, had a young girl, 7 or so. Then, over the summer, realized the marriage was in trouble when he would comment that he had his daughter for the weekend.

In the fall, October I guess, his son put a message on his account: if you have heard from my dad, please get in touch with me immediately. Dad had been missing for a day or so, with his pickup.

He had killed himself. Oh, the pain. The pain of his family. The pain of even remotely attached people such as online friends. Several months now, and people are still commenting about the loss, the desire to have figured it out, to have been able to reach out to him.


27 posted on 12/29/2012 8:52:21 AM PST by ican'tbelieveit (School is prison for children who have commited the crime of being born. (attr: St_Thomas_Aquinas))
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To: nickcarraway

What a selfish SOB. Couldn’t just take himself out. Had to endanger the lives and destroy the property of innocent bystanders to gratify his narcissism.


28 posted on 12/29/2012 8:56:11 AM PST by E. Pluribus Unum ("Democracy is indispensable to socialism. The goal of socialism is communism." --Vladimir Lenin)
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To: BlessedBeGod

Selfishness has a lot to do with it. Too selfish in wanting an immediate and permenant solution to a temporary situation and scarring the train engineer for life. It certainly isn’t compassion.


29 posted on 12/29/2012 8:56:11 AM PST by bgill (We've passed the point of no return. Welcome to Al Amerika.)
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To: SunkenCiv

“Antjuan”? I’m confused, was he Black or Mexican?


30 posted on 12/29/2012 9:17:25 AM PST by AmericanSamurai
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To: AmericanSamurai

Could be French and Mexican, I guess?


31 posted on 12/29/2012 9:19:50 AM PST by RegulatorCountry
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To: ican'tbelieveit
people are still commenting about the loss, the desire to have figured it out, to have been able to reach out to him.

I can see that in your post. If you did ask anything on line, it would seem like prying and if you did get a chance to help, then you would feel you didn't do enough. All we can learn from this is be honest with those around us and ask them to do the same. They have the support - it certainly isn't from the lack of support - even from strangers. I know, sometimes we think if we said that 'one right thing' to jar them into reality and they take time to rethink things it could have turned out different.

32 posted on 12/29/2012 10:27:10 AM PST by presently no screen name
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To: nickcarraway

They should have called it an “attempted homicide” note instead. How many people could have been injured or killed if he had derailed that train? At 75mph the momentum would have been impressive.


33 posted on 12/29/2012 10:47:39 AM PST by yefragetuwrabrumuy (Pennies and Nickels will NO LONGER be Minted as of 1/1/13 - Tim Geithner, US Treasury Sect)
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To: Casie
Suicide by train conductor is pretty similar to suicide by cop.

No, it's not. This man was suffering from depression (a medical condition), not committing a crime.

34 posted on 12/29/2012 11:45:27 AM PST by BlessedBeGod
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To: goat granny
What the heck is a “normal suicide?”

As opposed to suicide by cop.

35 posted on 12/29/2012 11:46:25 AM PST by BlessedBeGod
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To: goat granny

Sorry, GG. I accidentally replied to you instead of LurkingSince1943.


36 posted on 12/29/2012 11:48:04 AM PST by BlessedBeGod
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To: LurkingSince1943
What the heck is a “normal suicide?”

As opposed to suicide by cop.

37 posted on 12/29/2012 11:48:38 AM PST by BlessedBeGod
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To: presently no screen name
Yes it does. They think no one else has pain like they do - because they didn't care to ask or know. It's all about them.

You don't understand what's going on in their head. When someone commits suicide, they're not thinking normally. They're in so much pain, they think that the only way out -- the only way to solve the problem -- is to kill themself. They truly believe that no one will understand and that no one can help them. Whether that's true or not or whether they've already asked for help and didn't get it in their particular case doesn't matter -- they're completely blinded by their pain. They don't have the presence of mind for it to be "all about them."

He's was 23 with a job and able to work, a car, family/friends and living in America! He's already had more than most.

So you know all about his life, do you? Amazing.

38 posted on 12/29/2012 11:56:43 AM PST by BlessedBeGod
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To: bgill
Selfishness has a lot to do with it. Too selfish in wanting an immediate and permenant solution to a temporary situation...

See #38.

39 posted on 12/29/2012 11:58:44 AM PST by BlessedBeGod
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To: BlessedBeGod
Purposely running your vehicle into a train is a crime. Pulling a weapon on a cop is a crime. Both the cop and the train engineer do not deserve the pain of being forced into killing a suicidal person. I'm not sure why you see it differently, but its ok that you do. :)
40 posted on 12/29/2012 12:02:54 PM PST by Casie (Chuck Norris 2016)
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To: goat granny
you just made yourself look like a jerk

Amen Granny....

I had two uncles, a co-worker and a best friend's 30 year old son who all committed suicide and each had their own personal reason for doing so and it wasn't selfishness.......

I hate these threads and the people like Casie who are attracted to them. They profess to know everything about mental illness when in fact they don't know crap.

Some claim that just because they may have had a family member commit suicide that somehow gives them the moral superiority to comdemn the poor people who have died.......

41 posted on 12/29/2012 12:37:41 PM PST by Hot Tabasco (Jab her with a harpoon.....)
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To: presently no screen name
I wanted to address the part that it is indeed a selfish act.

Don't because you know nothing about mental illness and the vast number of causes of suicide. Mood disorders, medication, bipolar disorder, personality disorders, schizophphreniform disorder, post traumatic disorder, are just several of the most common causes.......

They all require medical help and in most cases, proper medication.....

42 posted on 12/29/2012 12:57:39 PM PST by Hot Tabasco (Jab her with a harpoon.....)
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To: Casie

I agree with you Casie. I’m sorry about your Uncle.


43 posted on 12/29/2012 3:58:13 PM PST by Amberdawn
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To: dragnet2
How stupid are you?**************thank you for asking...

Obliviously I am not as stupid as you. What you posted didn't happen. You must live in the world of WHAT IF. I think a lot of people do....What is.....is not the world for you...Or maybe I misread the article and hundreds of people died due to a train derailment.

44 posted on 12/31/2012 3:39:17 AM PST by goat granny
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To: BlessedBeGod
You are so right....people think nothing about a malfunction of any of our organs...If a bone can break, a brain can also malfunction...people fear and will not admit that, its too scary to think it could happen to them...The reason people fear also is when the brain is malfunctioning, it effects behavior....Cat scans and especially Pet scans show in real time with pictures what parts of the brain are not functioning....try living as some schizophrenics do when the pet scan shows over 1/2 of the brain is not functioning....I pass no judgment on this poor soul, no one could see his pain because they cannot see what part of the brain may not be working....Lots of judgment and arrogance going on here, more so than when other suicides are written about....

The only one that knows the total story of this soul is Jesus, the rest is just so much name calling and judgment from those that have never been in that deep hole called clinical depression....and its not, as some seem to think just selfish or feeling down for a couple of days. Brains can go wrong is many ways...believe it, know it and pray it doesn't happen to you or one you love....you wouldn't even have a clue as to how to help that person except to tell them to quit being so selfish I gather from many of the replies...In other words, your useless in dealing with such people at best, and do more damage at worse...

45 posted on 12/31/2012 4:13:24 AM PST by goat granny
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To: BlessedBeGod

thats OK at least I know I’m not the only one that does that...Have a great week.. GG


46 posted on 12/31/2012 4:39:58 AM PST by goat granny
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To: presently no screen name

Although you are correct, I think that misses the point.

People who choose to off themselves are usually so consumed with emotional pain they are unable to understand that the method of their suicide will possibly bring distress to others. This guy probably just saw the train as a huge, deadly force that could end it all quickly and did not consider that a human being was driving that train.

Also, people in such a state usually have such low self worth they are convinced that no one will care if they kill themselves. Indeed, they are certain everyone else will be better off without them. They actually think they are doing everyone else a favor by killing themselves.


47 posted on 12/31/2012 5:24:15 AM PST by Skooz (Gabba Gabba we accept you we accept you one of us Gabba Gabba we accept you we accept you one of us)
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To: goat granny
My my aren't you the compassionate one. I take it your not too religious.

If the 75mph train derailed and brutally killed several dozen unsuspecting innocents, would ya still have compassion for this self centered AH?

What you posted didn't happen.

Tell me grandma...How in hell did this AH know this prior to pulling in front of a 75mph train? This AH endangered everyone within 200 yards of his self centered azz.

Being stupid is not compassionate grandma.

48 posted on 12/31/2012 9:10:22 AM PST by dragnet2 (Diversion and evasion are tools of deceit)
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