Posted on 04/16/2007 2:48:18 PM PDT by Jemian
Kayak has been a long-time freeper, appearing on many threads, but most especially America ~ the Right Way! She is a stanch conservative, a good friend, and most especially a dear sister in Christ. In December 2006, she was diagnosed with lung cancer which was soon found to be metastasized to the brain and throughout her body.
Her daughter, registered as Poppyseed, has been giving us updates when Kayak had to stop posting. This is the update posted most recently.
So much has happened since my last message to you all. My whole family came down this past weekend, and my brother came as well. The difference between Mama the weekend before and then this weekend was like night and day. By this past weekend, she had begun letting go, and was more or less staying in bed, much, much weaker and frailer than the weekend before, when she was weak but present.I stayed on after the weekend to be with Daddy and help out around the house, and to sit vigil by Mama. She was quiet, but sometimes responsive, and eating. This morning, though, her breathing changed, and she is in a near-comatose state and not really responsive at all. The Hospice nurse who came to see her this afternoon said that she is actively dying, and said that anytime in the next 24 hours, to the next two or three days, we can expect her to let go.
Yesterday, Daddy was hugging her, just loving on her the way he does, and she said, “You just won’t let me go, will you?” And he told her that absolutely he will let her go, and that anytime she’s ready to let go, she should.
I also told her that when she’s ready, she should go. I told her that we will take care of each other, and God will take care of us. “Are you ready to go?” I asked. “Go where?” she said. “Home,” I said. “Yes,” she said.
And after that business was taken care of, she began the process of letting go. She’s ready, and we’re as ready as we’ll ever be.
Please pray for her swift and peaceful passing into the next phase of life, and keep the rest of us in your prayers. We alternate - well, I alternate - between numb and inconsolable. It doesn’t even seem real right now. I’m sure it’ll hit me hard, harder, hardest later on.
She doesn’t seem to recognize us any more, so I won’t be passing on any messages to her. She seems to have heard all she needs to from those of us here in this world. She’s got her feet in two worlds, but she’s mostly elsewhere now.
I’m trying to keep myself busy, so I doubt I’ll be able to return individual responses to anyone anytime soon - apologies for that in advance. Thank you all for your love and your prayers. Take care, and I’ll let you know when she dies.
Love to all of you.
It was felt that y'all could post your tributes and thoughts to her here and perhaps it could be included in her memorial service when the time comes.
LOL!!
Please do!
They’re getting harder and harder to find.
LOL — Okay. I will look for one tomorry.
That’s going on our Dose tomorrow night, thanks to our gracious Billie. How about that?
Mama made it through the night last night. Today she’s been much less responsive, and in considerable pain. We’ve upped her dosage of morphine and her frequency of getting it. Her breathing sounds horrible. She’s virtually comatose. The swelling around her eyes has gone down some, so today she’s looked, around the eyes, more like her old self than she has in months. The lower part of her face is still swollen, but it’s good to see glimpses of my old Mama.
She had an episode of severe pain this evening that had her moaning horribly, and it was so hard to watch. It took a little while for the morphine to kick in, but it did, and she settled back down.
Her blood pressure was lower today than yesterday, her temperature up, her pulse up - all of these are signs of progression toward death. It won’t be long now. I pray for sooner than later, though I’m not sure I won’t regret that prayer when she’s no longer physically with us at all.
Anyway, it’s hard-going here, but I wanted to update you all.
Love to each of you.
You know...
Kay is going to love meeting Ronnie, and I’m loving the fact that I’ll know someone in that shining city upon a hill.
You are in my prayers. It is tough to watch someone you love die.
Kay was such a joy to work with...she was so humble and could not imagine why anyone would be interested in a thread about her. And she was absolutely adamant that we could not have a photo because she was not "photogenic" so we worked it up with a .gif of a kayak, lol. When she saw the draft of that, she sorta changed her mind and decided to send a photo. And we both assured her that she was very lovely and could not understand why she was hesitant to supply a photo.
At the time of the profile, she had not met many FReepers in person, except for CarolinaMom. She so enjoyed the FReep she did with her and their wonderful encounter with W.
I am very sad that she is losing her battle but know that the Lord will welcome her with open arms. She will be a beautiful angel.
This has got to be so hard for you and your Dad...bless you both as you spend this time with kay.
I am sure she senses you being there...and she will know that you were with her when she dies.
My prayers and thoughts are with you always..and with kay, that she may have no more pain.
sleuth
Continued prayers for Kayak and family.
Oh Poppy.....we’re here with you, all the way.
Bless your HEART for coming on here and telling us about your Mama. I’m so very sorry you all have to go through this.
Please Lord, heal Kay of this pain, and please Lord, let her family feel Your love through all of this.
In Your Name,
Amen
Continuing to pray.
Prayers for Kayak. May God heal her and comfort her.
((((((((poppyseed))))))))
You won't regret it honey. You only want your Mom to be eased of her suffering.We went through the same thing with my father. And yes, it was one of the hardest things I've ever done. I'm so glad you are there for her.
Your Mom was a great FRiend to my husband when we were looking at where to buy a business less than a year ago. Yesterday he talked fondly of their exchanges then, FReepmail and on board.
Our family's prayers are with you and yours, Poppy.
May God bless you all.
prayers continue
Father God, release this your servant into your presence. Please grace her family with your presence as well, and the joy of knowing that their loved one is with you and whole again.
My prayers go out to you.
My thoughts and prayers continue to be with you all
Deep in the night, a prayer for you. When all is dark, do not despair - you are not alone. Surrounding you and your mother are the prayers of thousands, calling out to God in Jesus’ name.
it is hard to wait. Listen for the Angels...
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